最近我越来越懒惰了，

没心情做工，

很想休息，

却不想留在家里，

我自己很矛盾，

不懂自己应该做什么~~~

不是迷失方向，

而是，

不懂该走，

该跳，

还是该跑~~~~

今天Ah Yinqq心情不好，

我惹到她更生气，

所以我选择安静，

让她冷静，

过了一会儿，

她没事了。。。

哥们，

你真的没事吗？？？

别逞强哦~~~

今晚是鬼们开，

农历七月初一，

还是早一点睡比较好，

哈哈，

无聊咯我，

早睡对身体好~~~~

^o^ V

今天我兄弟，

她分手了，

我刚刚去陪了她吃西餐，

真得好好吃哦，

幸福到。。。

过后我们去了Black Ball，

她又吃甜品，

我的天啊！

她未免太强了吧！！！！

可是当她吃到一半，

她开心地笑了，

因为她男友与她聊天，

我很生气，

作为兄弟，

其实我该替她高兴，

可是我生气了，

因为我被骗第二次了，

上次她说分手，

我请她吃东西，

陪她，

过两天他们和好~~~~~

这次也是，

今天说分手，

今晚却开开心心聊天~~~

兄弟，

那样其实一点也不好玩，

下次你再分手，

我不会再陪你了，

因为也许下一秒你们又复合了~~~

最近不懂自己到底在做什么，

总是觉得很累，

一直缺乏睡眠，

明明睡眠充足，

但是还是一直打哈欠，

力不从心~~~~

>o<

今天老板来告诉了我一个很惊讶的事情，

老板叫我回家拿东西给他，

我被吓得目瞪口呆！！！

回到家都已经半个小时了，

又回去工厂也需要半个小时，

就这样，

午餐时间就玩完了~~~~

感谢主，

当要到了午餐时间，

老板来告诉我不用回家了，

待会那人会来~~~

我很高兴！

感谢主赐福！

哈哈哈哈哈

下午老板又说了另外一件事，

就是今年Raya工厂Shut Down两天，

就是说，

这个星期日和星期一没做工，

我心里觉得很开心，

因为可以与朋友出去，

可是同一时间，

心里有点不舒服，

因为两天Double Pay不翼而飞了~~~~

刚刚Ah Yinqq介绍我玩Pet Society，

宠物很可爱！

可是我的电脑不听话，

Lag到比乌龟走路还要慢~~~

我投降了，

不玩了~~~~~

电脑真不给我面子~~~~

>@<

这个星期日，

Ah Yinqq可能会陪我和朋友一起去爬山，

不懂她会不会去~~~><

我很久没爬山了，

不懂我的Stamina还有在吗~~~~

XDD

今天的我打算从新开始，

今天时间过得很慢，

也发生了很多不开心的事。。。

今天我朋友没去学校，

我以为他生病了，

我就问他为什么没去学校，

也许平时的我很鸡婆，

很烦，

所以他生气了，

到了下午，

我问他觉得好一些了吗？

他却说，

看到你就觉得Sienzzzzz，

这句话，

狠狠地伤了我的心。。。

我了解了，

我明白了，

从现在开始，

我不会再如此吵闹，

烦以及鸡婆。。。

刚刚有位面子书朋友告诉我，

她现在要去睡觉了。。

哈哈，

我听了，

大吃一惊！！

很开心！

不错哦！

第一次听到她早睡，

很好很好！

我支持她~~~~

XD

其实，

最近我面对很多烦恼，

工作压力，

友情变质，

面对上司以及长辈的压力，

我透不过气来了。。。

为什么我们不能像以前那样，

开开心心地看戏，

做无聊东西？？？

的确你成熟了，

可是成熟难道可以疏远我们的友情吗？？？

很多人问我为什么我那么鸡婆，

那么爱管闲事，

那么烦，

原因很简单，

我担心你们离弃我，

远离我，

不理我。。。

原来我那么担心，

却做出了无聊幼稚的举动，

弄到朋友们觉得我很烦。。。

对！

我小气！

我小心眼！

我自大！

我幼稚！

我很烦！

算了，

我累了，

心痛到泪也留不出了，

从现在开始，

我会成为你们所谓的成熟模样，

我会逼自己，

不再鸡婆，

小气，

烦，

无聊，

和幼稚！！！！！

So long time didnt upload my blog ,

It is already been 3 days ,

These 3 days I was so busy ,

1st day I lazy ,

2nd day I worked 15 hours per day ,

too tired so didnt upload blog ,

the 3rd day was my birthday ,

play whole day feel too tired ,

just fall asleep as soon as i get on my bed~

XD

Ermmmmmmmmm........

These few weeks I had been too emo ,

too pessimistic ,

is time to end up this crazy stupid things ,

How old am I already !!???

I already 19 !!!

Can I be mature !!??

Stop complaining~~~~~

Always just know complain complain ,

Leo soo ,

U such an asshole jerk and coward !

Just know how to complain ,

Dont know how to change ,

learn from mistake and get over it~~~~

I think ,

Start from now ,

I need to be mature ,

Say bye bye to older me~~

Say Hello to now d me~

Be honest !

Be optimistic !

Be brave !

Be gentlemen !

Do I get it ???!!!!!!!!!

I cut my hair already ,

so sad ,

Kelly say it is too short~~

And I feel the hair styler cut wrong hair for me~~~

It is already 3 times le~~~

Haizzzzz~~~

No more next time !

I wont let it happen anymore !

By the way ,

I still love this hair ,

because it is better than last time eh hair~ ^^

This morning ,

boss come to scold me and my fren early in the morning ,

I feel so angry ,

Why are u like that ,

Scolding us with ur nonsense thinking ,

Scold us why do so slow~

Both of us are the fasted two man team that done job quick~

But ,

U still say we slow ,

hello~~~~

Are u blind ???

But when in the evening ,

boss come to us and talk smooth and softly ,

Are u two ok ?

Wat happen ??

(WTH !!??
 U forget wat u done to us ???)

Fine ,

We know ur true face ,

We will try our best to beware of u~~~~

Congratz me~~~~

Today I had made her ignore me already ,

I know I am annoying ,

I cannot understand anyone ,

I ego ,

I had made many mistake~~~

But ,

why ???

U know how hurt when u perfunctory me ?

Friend~~~~

Can u pls dont treat me like that ?

It is too suffer~~~

Tomorrow I going to cut my hair~~

I hav no idea with wat hair style I wan ,

Cause my fren say I was not suitable to that hair style~

Haizzzzz~~~

Wat should i do ???

Wat hair style should I cut ???

Wat should I do to prevent u stay away from me ?

How I can be not annoying anymore ?

I trying hard to be a listener start from now~

But it is already too late~~~

She was gone~~~

Goodbye my fren~~~~

I lost u~

That was a big mistake i ever made !

I need to control myself ,

need to keep the distance clear...

If I fail to keep the distance ,

Congratz me ,

Cause I going to lose a Best Girl Friend if I fail ,

Not girl friend ,

but girl eh friend...

That day she say something to me ,

'u are not my parent ,
u hav no right to judge me'


and

'pls dont too close to me ,
dont make me stay away from u'

These two sentences ,

I totally waked up !

I realize that I not anyone for her ,

I am just her fren~

I cannot too close ,

too kepo her things ,

even though I really wanna care her everything , 

But ,

Wat for ?

I not her anyone~~~

I respect u ,

I wont get too near with u~~

I will force myself to not kepo ur everything ,

I hav no the right~

I just ur Fren~~~

Nothing more~~~~~~~~~~

=')

4th of August 2012

Just now go watch
"Total Recall"
Wat a nice movie !
Gosh !
The story are awesome 1
When watch the movie ,
feel so excited and interesting~
XD

But when finished watch movie~
I starting emo~
Cause tonight I cannot chat with someone ,
I thinking about her~
Thinking whether she enjoy now or already sleep jor~
Yinqq ,
I miss u so much lo~~~
Just one night didnt chat with u ,
I feel so uncomfortable~~
 T_T
Wat wrong with me ?
Fren ,
U are meaningful to me~~~
Do u know it ??

Is already 2 a.m.
I still cannot sleep~
I still waiting ying online~
Where are u ?
I am here~~~
Waiting for u ,
Did u know ?

3rd of August 2012

Today I met Yinqq !
OMG !
She is so tall !
but....
When she come out from van ,
she just saying goodbye to me ,
and she starting walk to her flat ,
I wan to stop her that time ,
but ,
I respect her ,
I dont wan force her ,
dont wan make her hate me~
I wanna run to chase her at the beginning ,
In the end ,
I choose to stand at there ,
watch her back and shadow ,
leaving me far far away~~~
That feelin ,
i dont know how to explain~~~

Yinqq !
U are the only one ,
 who can make me up and down easily between my friends ,
u are so pro~
XDD
Friends  !
Pls dont leave me alone~
Pls dont dump me !
Pls be my fren till we dead~
>o<

2nd of August

Today I feel so emo ,
I dont know why I am so emo ,
I just know I wasting my time for nothing ,
Actually I dont know wat should i do~~~

Just now Yinqq told me that I too close with her ,
like that will make us become stranger ,
when I hear this ,
I get shocked !
OMG !
I nearly make the distance between me and Yinqq more longer ,
I starting worry~~~
I just wanna be fren with u forever...

Yinqq said me hiao ,
because I just tag all gals...
Actually is not I hiao ,
is I scare ,
cause one of my buddies are so famous ,
he is talented ,
humour and many gals attract by him ,
I not dare to tag him because I scare...
I scare yinqq also attract by him ,
and starting forget me~
I know myself was a jerk ,
Selfish ！
In the end ,
I choose to tag him ,
and i get ready myself to stay calm when yinqq really gettin far away from me~
I need to make myself clear ,
Yinqq and I just fren~
Tomorrow night I going to meet Yinqq ,
And starting from saturday ,
I should make myself clear with the distance between yinqq and me ,
I dont wan too close with Yinqq untill she ran away from me~
I wan u to be my fren that accompany me till dead~
T_T

1st of August 2012

Today is the 1st day of  August ,
I wish I can face more good things in this month ,
but ,
today same with common day ,
work in a lame condition ,
but something is special ,
when I working ,
 I always thinking for a person ,
she is my good friend ,
Ah Yinqq~XD
I always thinking of her is because tonight i can meet her ,
when I going home from work ,
I still thinking of her and forget to concentrate on road...
And then ,
I bang a van backside~ >.<
Gosh !
My hand so pain !
But !
Thx God !
I am still alive ,
I still can meet my friend ,
Ah Yinqq... ^^

When i reach home ,
yinqq message me by facebook ,
she tell me no need met her anymore ,
she headache and no mood ,
I am so worry about her ,
friend ,
Are u ok ?
are u need some help here ?
At the begining ,
I feel disappointed ,
but when I know yinqq is headache ,
the feeling of disappointed gone ,
and I starting worry about her~~~
Friend ,
u should take care urself extra carefully lo~
she tell me she bang ppl and table ,
wow ,
I imagine the situation ,
I get shocked ,
and thinking something ,
Are she ok ???

Friend ,
I got something wanna giv u o~XDD
for u ,
maybe it just a cheap thing ,
for me ,
it is not a cheap thing ,
is a thing that I wanna give it to u~ ^o^