Still sick

  Wish I am going to recover soon, I will recover soon!!!!!

Sick

  I'm sick now, I am going to sleep soon, today not going to upload my blog... Good night all!

Anger

  Today I show my anger many times, all kids saw my anger and they get shocked but in the end they still listened to me and stay close to me... I show my anger to Mu Wei, Magdeline, Joshua and Sean, they get shocked but they still stay close with me after I scolded them.... I'm wondering what happened to me, today didn't happened anything that made me angry but my temper is coming all the time, luckily those anger not very serious and able to control it... Is it because I am too tired? So wondering, I think I should get more rest now, good night~XD 

Touched

  Today I heard some sentences that made me feel touched... Today our youth watching video about Nick Vicjucic, he say some sentences which is human are blaming on what they facing, blaming on what they didn't have, blaming on what people they faced, blaming on those things that happen on them, he didn't have legs and hands, should he blaming more than our blames? He said no, he not blaming but he was thankful because God give his this kind of body... He said God arrange like that is because God want him to become a miracle for human... Human have legs and hands but he didn't... He able to do activities that done by a normal human like he can swimming, play golf, fishing and sailing.... He is a miracle, He didn't blame anything but he thankful and appreciate what he has.... Thanks God for sending Nick to our world, he was the miracle that created by God!

Normal

  Today I have a normal day for me to past it... Thanks God for giving me a normal day.... I feel so happy to have this kind of normal day.... This morning I woke up early in the morning and I prepared to go jogging at Youth Park but I forgot today is Thaipusam... They block up that lane so I unable to reach Youth Park, I know many ways able to reach Youth Park so I tried 4 ways to reach Youth Park and at the end I failed to reach Youth Park so that I just go to Botanical Garden... Normally Botanical Garden is always full of people exercise and jogging at there but today Botanical Garden didn't have anyone jogging or exercise in it except I walk alone in Botanical Garden because Thaipusam already block up the lane to reach Youth Park and Botanical Garden.... Luckily motor still able to reach Botanical Garden by going through small lane... After that I went back home and stayed at home whole day.... Today is a normal day, I'm so glad I had this amazing normal day! 

Fool

  Forgive I using some word to pronoun human, the word is fool... Human is a fool... Why I say so? Human just know how to understand something just through sight, hear and touch, never use feel and heart to understand things... Don't tell me you had tried because no one success done it except God! I face many people that using sight, hear and touch to understand things include me, so I admit it I am a fool, I unable to control myself to use feel and heart to go to understand something... I had tried but I failed in the end because it is to difficult to success it... Temper always make me failed in this training... I am a FOOL! Yeah!

Me

  Who am I? I am a useless pessimistic guy... I looked down myself, I don't believe myself, I didn't have confidence... Maybe this all form inside me because of what I had been faced since I was young till know... Comments from human mouth are like a powerful magic that able to hypnosis people... When someone always say us useless, after a certain period, we will changed and become as what the someone say, become a real useless... Since I was young, my parent always scold me idiot, useless rubbish once I made any mistakes... So now I feel myself really same like an idiot and useless rubbish... I didn't have confidence, I don't believe on myself, I just believe on what people comment on me... Why I will become like that? I had been hypnosis????

Way

  Today is Dairy Valentines' day, Happy Dairy Valentines' day ya everyone.... Today let's us talk about 'way', everyone have a way to go, after they walk till a dead road, they will find another new way to continue walk further but I'm so useless because I lost my way and I unable to find another new way... I very clear what should I do but I so tired to do it, it doesn't mean my body unable to support me to walk the way, it just mean my heart was exhausted, tired till unable to let my body walk anymore.... The things I handled, the situation I faced, the people I met is making my heart getting near to death... Honestly say, I saw many ways to let me walk further but I choose to stand on the junction and doing nothing... I had walk a lot, I had take many adventures, I know if I not continue step forward, I may fall down and unable to stand up anymore...Sometimes, I really wanna step forward but I can estimated the ending so I choose to stand at junction and being useless at there... I wanna take a long rest but I hate rest... Actually what I want? I also not sure what I want actually... I not just lost my way, I also lost my mind, lost my heart, lost my target and lost myself...

Argue

  Why so serious? Why every time easy to argue with me? Beh siok me just say, no need acting acting in front of us then after have chance tiok argue with me... Same mistake happen on different people gain different ending... Mistake happen on other people, just laugh laugh and said paiseh then things is settle... Mistake happen on me, keep asking why, why, why until I show black face still keep asking why, then I shout back baru open war with me... KNS! Beh siok me then admit it, why still say bo la, bo ah, bo leh then when chance is coming then come to argue with me? All is finding chance to attack me, want to play like that? See whole can hold longer, I not stupid, I won't just stand there and let you attacked me, I will pay back what you did to me... You just wait for it....

Kids

  Kids are so real, kids are so straight... How we treat them, they will remember it and treat us back like how we treated them... Kids are better than human... When human is growing old, they will start to change, change into complex... Why must being complex after growing up? Why cannot be naive like kids? Naive is wrong? Naive is the happiness, complex is the stress and tension... Human always like to choose to be complex, choose to gain stress and tension.... I choose to be naive but human around me not allow me to be naive, they said I should not be naive, so childish, said I should grow up... Why human need to live for how human look at them? Why cannot live for their own? Human always say human which live for their own are selfish and doing wrong... Is it mean human which live for how human look at them are doing right? Gosh! We ain't robot.... We are human , living creatures in this world....

Human

  World is simple, is only human is complex... Why human so complex? Why human need to be like this? Why cannot be simple? Why must wear branded, stay big house, eat high class food and spend a lot? Wear branded and wear non-branded have different? Sometimes, non-branded shirt is prettier than branded... Stay big house and stay small house have big different, stay in a big house you will have a lot of space, can keep a lot of things but when you tidy up your big house you will die cause too big and one more is you need to walk a lot, stay in a small house you will have limited space, cannot keep a lot of things but you will easy to tidy up your house and you may reached your room and room in a short time... Eat high class food and eat common food, which one you prefer? High class food are more healthier, expensive, small portion and unable to full filled your stomach... Common food are not healthy enough, cheap, big portion and able to full filled your stomach... Why human wanna eat high class food always? To show off, to enjoy or to waste money? Why should human spend extra money? For full filled their happiness or their loneliness? Please la, spend on something not necessary is equal to throwing money into rubbish dump...

Pessimistic

  I am a super duper pessimistic guy... Many people advised me to be change, change to be optimistic... I failed to success this mission because I really hard to be optimistic... I grow up from a bad environment and having bad guys surrounding my life style add on I too easily trust people so I always get cheated... I really feel so tired to have this kind of life.... People say once we optimistic, what also will become happy and nice but for me, optimistic just like cheating ourselves, hypnosis ourselves... Many people say people which around us are our mirror, they will treat us back like how we treat them but when we really treat people nice, they won't treat us nice back but they will feel that they use to be treated well... Haizzzzzzz, why now days people all like that style? Is it a trend? I am so wondering....

Face

  The 'face' I write on title doesn't mean the face that everyone have, the 'face' I saying is 'face' problems... Do you dare to face problems? Do you dare to face the truth? Do you dare to face the realistic? My answer is NO! NO!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!! I not dare!!!!! I hate to face problems! I hate to face truth! I hate to face realistic! Gosh!!! You can say I am a coward! Even though I am a coward but I have one thing I dare to admit it which is I dare to admit I am a COWARD! Facing problems, truth and realistic need a lot of brave... I don't have brave inside myself... So I choose to run away, choose to be coward... So stress, so tension when I wanna face problems, face truth and face realistic.... haizzzzzzzzzz 

Problems

  There were many problems appeared in everyone life... There were many problems for us to face it day to day... Many people says we should face those problems but not choose to run away from those problems... We should face it and solve it but no body think before about some problems that is really unable to be solve easily... They will just say stop finding excuses because in this world doesn't exist problem that unable to be solve... We should have the confidence to face those problems so that we may easily solve those problem... Say always is easier than do.... No body figure out before about what will happen after face those problems... Sometimes, ignore one problem like the tube is stuck, face one problem like exploding the dynamite, what you will choose to do? Will you let the tube stuck or you wanna try to explode the dynamite? Hard to make decision? Am I right? Think deeply before you wanna face problems.... In this world doesn't exist unsolvable problems but it is also doesn't exist easily solvable problems too....

Trust

  Trust between human and human in this world is not exist.... No body will trust or count on someone because human was getting cheated, lied, and betrayed many times by the person they trust a lot...... Human always suspected human all the time... Why they suspected each other time to time? The reason is simple... People was losing their trust by someone else since they get hurt from last time.... Maybe get hurt when he or she was young... My mind too powerful, easy to think east think west, always thinking nonsense, I too easy to trust people so I always get cheated, lied and betrayed... I use to it.... I learn to cool up myself to be a cool blooded guy, maybe it is a good way to protect myself and prevent me to get cheated, lied or betrayed again....

Stubborn

  I am a stubborn crazy ego guy.... I feel myself was born to being stubborn... Haha, why I say so? Since when I was young till now, I always facing negative environment and negative mindset human... I know human should be positive but I unable to be positive because I am a stubborn guy, I grow from a negative environment and this  kind of environment train up my stubborn attitude, so this attitude is quite hard to be change... My friend Kelvin advised me to change my stubborn attitude or else I unable to survive in future... Inside my mind, I can imagine how worst is my situation if I change my stubborn attitude... Do you all know something? Human like to bully human that so kind so nice and so good... I always get cheated get betrayed get fooled get laughed... I hate to be good stupid fool... So I become a stubborn bad attitude guy.... After I become stubborn guy, I less get fooled, laughed, cheated or betrayed because I lost all friends, they unable to accept my bad attitude and they hate me because I change be bad... I think this a good way to protect myself...... Maybe or maybe not....

Lost

  I'm feel so lost... I don't know what should I do, don't know what can I do.... I am too lost... Suddenly, I feel there is nothing for me to do in this world anymore.... What is the purpose I born in this world? Why I so negative? I wanna change to be more positive, but I couldn't do it... I failed to make myself become positive... I know people will say,  I really can make it, really can become positive, only I giving excuses to run away... I not giving any excuses to support my failure... Honestly, I really hard to be positive... I had met a lot of negative environment and people... God, please tell me what should I do, I am so lost, I had accidentally walk other ways again... God, please guild me back to the real way....

Backup

  Backup, this is something that human always accidentally ignore it... Backup is something that very important because when the main things unable to function, backup will be playing a very important part at that moment... Human are so blind... Why I say so? Human just paying attention on something which is beautiful, sharp, bright, special but never paying attention on common things that we face everyday... Human always ignore backup things, so when any incidents happen, human will just get in nervous and unable to do anything because they didn't have the backup plan or backup things... Backup able to let us feel safe because any problems happen in so event, we also won't feel worry because we already have backup plan and backup things... Human just like to be fast, human hate to make backup things because in their mindset, backup plan and backup things is equal as wasting time.... I am human too, I will ignore backup plan and backup things... So I every time will fully check my stuff before start to prevent any problems because I am very clear about I didn't have any backup plan or backup things....

Awful

  I can't believe I met a awful superior in my life! Gosh! Do you know how awful is my superior? Our monthly report should send to KLHQ account department within 5 working days and my superior is going to KL on next Monday but superior didn't tell us about this... Just now when almost reached 7 pm, superior suddenly asked us, did our monthly report finished? Can my superior take the report pass to KLHQ account department on next Monday? Wow! What the hell!!!??? So sudden!!!!! See, how awful is my superior... Always say easy then work... Always talk east talk west but never success done... Okay, let me ask you all... If your friend asking you send a document for some company, he or she gives you 5 days but he or she suddenly asked you about did you sent the document already on the second day, what you will feel? Will you be angry? Some more my superior say never mind, send it next Tuesday but how we suppose to explain to KLHQ account department? We sure late pass up our monthly report this month....

Busy

  Today are so busy, busy and busy... Today is the day for us to do monthly report, account department requested us to do new format monthly report and because of last month extended promotion date, this month we need to do double monthly report... I start do these two reports, order stock, count stock and asking information about stock since 9.20 am till 5.30 pm... This was the first time I faced the computer for 8 hours non stop... Oh my gosh! It doesn't feel great at all! Some more our crazy superior keeps giving us extra works to follow up, please la, these two sets of monthly reports are already taking away we both storekeepers' life, why superior still annoying and keep throwing troubles for us to settle but not concern us? We work hardly and help superior solve problem as soon as possible and smoothly but superior doesn't appreciate it but still comments a lot... Wow! First time see people has this such of bad behavior... Do you know how worst is my superior? When troubles come out, superior using to be a defend wall, saying those troubles are created by us... When we done a great job and getting praise, superior will say those great jobs was done by superior and we just making many troubles.... See, it is awesome, right? When superior need your help, you will be threaten nicely but if superior no need your help and you just make some small mistakes, you will be threaten badly till you really thought it was super duper serious mistake you had done but actually it just a not serious mistake....

2014

  Today is the first day of year 2014, I so happy because today is a good start day for year 2014.... Today I helping neighbor clear rubbish, my neighbor feel so happy with my helps.... After helped my neighbor, I went out with my friends... It has been long time didn't meet u with them... Last time we always hang out together, today I accidentally get some news about they are going out together but they didn't jio me, so I asked them I can join them or not... Luckily they accepted, when we met, we start arguing with each other, that is our way to communicate~XD And then we went to watch a movie named "Make me a shudder", it was a Thailand ghost funny movie... It was too awesome! We all laugh loudly and didn't feel scare about it, what a nice movie! You all should enjoy this movie, it is really awesome and worth to watch it....