Pessimistic

  I am a super duper pessimistic guy... Many people advised me to be change, change to be optimistic... I failed to success this mission because I really hard to be optimistic... I grow up from a bad environment and having bad guys surrounding my life style add on I too easily trust people so I always get cheated... I really feel so tired to have this kind of life.... People say once we optimistic, what also will become happy and nice but for me, optimistic just like cheating ourselves, hypnosis ourselves... Many people say people which around us are our mirror, they will treat us back like how we treat them but when we really treat people nice, they won't treat us nice back but they will feel that they use to be treated well... Haizzzzzzz, why now days people all like that style? Is it a trend? I am so wondering....