Goodbye 2013

  Today is the last day of 2013, is going to be 2014... In the last day of 2013, many people are going to countdown but I alone in home... Many of my friends are going to pub or clubbing... I advised them not to go... It's kinda danger, I think they will feel I am a coward... For me, that is just wasting money to buy something to break our health even though the something is bringing happiness and exciting feeling.... 2013 is the best year I ever met because it gave me happiness, sadness, angry, disappointed, surprises, challenges, memorable story, good friends, bad friends, liar, angels, devils and many more.... I just want a simple normal life... 2014, would you let me pass through you smoothly? 

Impulsive action

  When we talk about impulsive action, many people will say they didn't have these such of stupid action, they have good behavior... See, they not dare to admit theirs bad... Many people have impulsive actions when they were facing some sudden incidents.... Not many people able to control themselves when they were getting nervous... I had done many impulsive action, sometime I get hurt, sometime I ruin the things, sometime I made right action but mostly I made the problem getting worst~XD I should learn to be patient... That is a difficult lesson for me because I am an aggressive dynamite... I easy to get angry, ego and emo.... So you all will see my impulsive actions many time in a day~XD
Please, I really need to success in learning patient... I don't want to be aggressive... But it is hard... However, I still need to try!

Common sense

  Common sense, is a thing that hard to handle and control because everyone has different common sense.. Some people have sensitive common sense, they will know what should they do in different situation... Some people don't have sensitive common sense, they won't able to know what should they do in different situation... Is it common sense is a special power that have when we were born? The answer is no! Common sense has another name which is sense from experience, why I say so? Common sense is able to train up through experiencing all problems... For example, first time facing problem like your friend fall into big deep drain, you will nervous and you don't know what should you do, you able to pull him up... And then other people try to find something to let him stand higher and pull him up... So... When the second time you facing this kind of problem, you will have common sense, you will calm down yourself and you will quickly find something to let the person stand more higher and rescue that person easily... Common sense can be train up by facing more and more problems... But now days people are very afraid to involve in any problems and cause people losing their common sense....

What should I do?

  What Should I do? I am so lost! I am wondering what should I do... I do this kena said I did wrong, I do that also kena said I did wrong too... I don't do anything also kena said I did wrong some more... Walao!!! I hate myself... I hate this world... I hate my life! Today I didn't have anything to write... I am too emo... So sorry about that... Goodnite....

So serious?

  Today one of my brother in Christ warning me not to spread some fake news towards people because it may break church's images and his images... I'm so wondering because last time I saw he post a status on facebook which is nobody is able to blocking me to go in church... When I saw this status, I misunderstood the meaning, I thought church not allowing he go inside... Today he suddenly said this problem is very serious, it may break his images and church's images so he want me to post a status on facebook about I misunderstood this case for recovering his images and church's images... I just reply him why should post on facebook? Is it so serious till whole world know this news already? I just told one people and the people told you about this only... Why need to post on facebook? You wanna make this news become big news? Want you things become topics again? Recovering your images? Is it serious till like that? Brother, you had changed.. You now just care about your images? A misunderstanding case also need to be settle in serious way which is to clarify it by post status on facebook? And when I asked back is it should be settle like that? He just answer, can or cannot? cannot then never mind already... Wow! What had you said??!!! You totally changed! You changed become a person that only care images but not care feelings....

Good News

  Yesterday night I'm still wondering I'm going to get good news or bad news... Yesterday night I'm still wondering I'm going to leave this world soon or not... Yesterday night I'm still feeling myself not ready to leave this world yet... Thanks God because this morning I get a good news which is I'm still going to survive in this world... Amen! When the moment I'm gonna know the answer soon, I was very nervous, I'm thinking what I should do after I get the answer is bad news... So glad to hear good news from the answer! Thanks God!!!! See??? When people getting good news that person will be very happy but today I heard some special person... He got an bad news which is he got the fourth period cancer but he still able face this bad news with a happy mindset... He was a christian and he was only 20 years old... I am so shocked because I think myself unable to accept myself if I have cancer on my own body... He accepted this and said to his mother about this cancer was a witness to show to people in this world! He was an awesome teenager and too optimistic! He is fully believe in God, God, please take care this teenager, he is light  that can light up humans' darkness, God please let his witness makes humans wake up and let all human in this world get salvation from this witness and God's words!

Ready

  Are you ready? When people asking us this question, we will just simply reply yes we are ready but when someone asking help from us, what answer we will give? You sure you really ready? Today our church is having performance at Han Chiang high school school hall, when is the turn for us to perform, many of us are getting nervous and feel not ready but recall back yesterday night memory, we said we are ready for the performance... Why people always like that? Always say but unable to do it? I am this kind of person too, I hate myself! Every time people asking me did I ready? I just simply reply I was ready but when the things in coming to me, I suddenly feel myself unable to handle it and honestly, I felt myself not ready before... In this world, that is impossible have anyone able to say they are ready because no one are ready to accept they death... Tomorrow I am going to know I gonna survive or I gonna die... Now so nervous but also feel calm... God is holding this all, I just give it to God... I full of sins... Maybe I should leave this world... But I didn't wanna leave this world even though I hate this world... I just wanna say I not ready...

Important

  Important! Many things are important to us, for example, healthy, career, education, certificate, cash, happiness, family members, boyfriend or girlfriend, husband or wife, many more.... There have one thing that special, if you treat it too important you will make people hate you but if you treat it not very important you will make people feel that you are cheap.. That thing is decisions... Haha! Get shocked with my answer? Many people will think the answer was Faces but so sorry, my answer was decisions... Why I say so? Dicisions are important or not important? Have you think before if you make wrong decisions, what ending it bringing? Nope... People just think things that bring advantages to themselves are the most important things ever! Let's take a look, if we treat choices so important, we are unable to make decisions and will feel very stress till unable to breath and in the end we fail to make our decisions... The other way, if we are too easy to make decisions without thinking the end, we will see our lucks, lucks good bringing good ending, lucks bad bringing bad ending... This is not a game, not simply make decision without thinking and also don't think too over till you unable make your own decisions.. Try asking people' advises and make yourself more confidence to make the right decisions...

Force

  Force! Anyone love the feeling that force by someone? No one love it , am I right? This morning, that crazy boss suddenly proposed one scary game in briefing time... That game is sharing our own opinion about all colleagues, this can be count as team building... Boss say this game is easy to play, you just say out what you think, no body will force you to say...Listen carefully ya, boss say won't force at the first... When reached my turn, I say out all my bad... I'm ego, aggressive and no manner... After that all colleagues comment on me... When the time I made conclusion, my boss asked me what I wanna made for conclusion, I say my conclusion was nothing to say.. Boss started staring at me and say no matter what you also need to say something... Huh??? At first you are the people who say won't force us but now you forcing me pula.... Walao!!! See! This is why I said nothing to say because that boss are horrible, in front us say like boss won't care so much but actually boss are really care, only boss setting a trap to make us speak out truth... So scary, boss acting like that I just follow boss acting back...

Honest

  What is the meaning of honest? Everyone know it's meaning but no one able to do as what it means... Why I say so?  Now days, human choose to be a liar more than an honest people because honest people always get hurt badly and play fooled by people... Humans are getting hate to be honest to prevent get fool or get hurts... Many people are scare to be honest because themselves unable to accept the truths so they will think other people also unable to accept those truths if they honest say out... Humans always just think from their sides but never think both sides even though they always telling people around them to think both side... This is humans' bad habits, humans always very well in encouraging people with lots of sentences that make sense but never able to encouraging themselves back because they know those sentences that make sense just a bullshit... Only kids are the most honest, they shows us all what they think and what they feel... The more simple we live, the more simple we get happiness... Honest is a simple way to let people understand us but we choose to be a liar to make people hard to understand us and in the end say no body understand us, I am shooting myself because I wanna honest to people but sometime I will keep a bit but not honest all... Haha, see? I am speaking sentences that make sense but it doesn't make sense for myself because I know those sentences' meaning and stories well...

Caroling

  Tonight our church's youth having a caroling near our church, I didn't know about it... So all youth were wearing white t-shirts and blue jeans, only I'm the special one, I wore orange t-shirt and white long pant... =~=" So special lo me!!!! Tonight we had been caroling to many place, for example kopitiam, mamak stall and old town... Our first caroling place was kopitiam, there was so many customers in it, all those customer were paying attention on us when we were going to start our caroling, this made us so nervous till unable to sing... Thanks God we made it, we able to sing and those following songs we able to sing smoothly... Customers in kopitiam gave us so many warm smile, we felt so happy... After that we were going to following caroling, Thanks God to giving me a chance to caroling... Actually in the beginning, I was thinking why I'm so stupid, come to youth go caroling pula because I worried and I shy... But after we mission completed, I felt it so worth, I felt so happy because I able to join caroling and bringing happiness to others people! 

Lesson

  Today I learnt a good lesson, thanks to the Proton Saga owner so much! Today when I'm on the way going back home from work, I saw an accident, a Mvyi kiss a Saga's ass... I don't know why the Myvi will kiss Saga ass, maybe Myvi's driver not concentrate... When Saga's driver feel she get kissed, the first emotion of the Saga's driver is shocked and laughing... Huh???!!! Own car's ass get kissed by someone still able to laugh some more, that driver are so awesome... After that I thought the Saga's driver will come down from car but she didn't come down from car but just sit inside car... After 1 minute, Mvyi's driver come out and talk to Saga's driver... I'm wondering because if my car's ass get kissed sure I first jump down from car... I thinking, thinking and thinking... Finally I learnt a lesson from the Saga's driver... She had taught me not too easy to come down from car once get kissed by other car because it maybe is fake accident really robbery... All my friends who watch this blog, remember to calm down yourself when you involve in an accident... Don't go down from your car before you make sure the situation was safe... Lesson learnt!

Believe

  Many people said there was a 'lie' is hiding inside 'believe', call us not to too believe someone... But so sad because human was easy to believe human and easy to be cheated and get hurt by the one who they trust very much... I had control myself not to trust too much before but seem that I had failed to control myself... Since I was in primary school till now, I always been cheated been hurt but I still like that easy to trust people around me... Am I a stupid idiot fool???? I think I am!!!! Please my friends which around me, please don't ever betray me or lie to me... I will hate you forever, if I not hate you I will not friend with you anymore... Don't force to be like that cruel, I also don't want be like that but it was too hurt till force me to do that if the one I trust had betrayed me or lie me or cheated me.... I like to be honest and straight because like that will be very simple... Simple was the happiest thing that very hard to get it, so we should learn how to be simple but now days human just learning to be more complicated because they feel themselves will easy get cheated if they were simple.... You like to live in a simple world or a complicated world? You choose yourself, think carefully...

Complicated

  Why human so complicated? Sometime say this is the right way, after 5 minutes say this is the wring way.... So COMPLICATED!! Human was you, ghost also was you... So hate this kind of people, when ask about this way can or not, always shout:"Sure like this way la! Why you keep asking those stupid question? Use your common sense la please!" But when the way that people said so easy just now doesn't work at all, I go ask again and I get shout again too:"Who told you do this way?! Have you concentrate on what I said just now? XXX, you tell him what I said just now!" Wow! So fierce, then I shoot back:"This way was purposed by you just now, you said I should use this way and you said I'm asking  stupid question..." After that person heard this, that person just keep quiet and say like a fool:"Huh??? Really meh?!!! I really said that just now??!! Maybe you heard wrong la... Quick go use the second way solve the problems..." See, so amazing, am I right? That person are totally complicated with what that person think... People work with their duty, that person work with that person mood... Syok syok this syok syok that, problems come out, push this push that push far far... Some more always say that person able control all things... So funny, please la, just admit your fault, the more you cover your fault the more I beh siok you and watch you down... =_=|||

Pattern

  Pattern, everyone also have their own special pattern... Pattern can be a pattern that many people like it, it may also be a pattern that many people hate it... Pattern is hard to change it because pattern and habits not very same, habits can be change once you force yourself but pattern is unable to change no matter how you force yourself... Today I had experiencing a lot of different patterns... I have my bad pattern, my bad pattern is I ego, I only do the things I feel right and don't like to follow those orders that I don't like... This bad pattern is easy to make people hate me no matter you have a expert EQ or good controlling your own temper... So I not very easy to communicate with anyone but if those people who can accept my bad pattern, they will be very happy to cooperate with me because they will found out my bad pattern is bringing some good job works~XD Today my big boss is coming to our branches, it also mean my superior's pattern also coming out soon... My expectation was too awesome, as my expectation said, all those pattern and bad habits all come out once big boss reached.... =_= Wow! Awesome pattern... Never mind la because all colleagues already feel nothing with her bad patterns because we always face it when big boss coming... Just can say she was very awesome because always do like that but won't feel tired or boring~XD

Amazing way or simple boring way?

  An amazing lifestyle and a simple boring lifestyle, which lifestyle you will choose? Normally people will choose amazing lifestyle because it is challenging and exciting but I so weird, I choose a simple boring lifestyle.... Why I say so? Okay, Let me tell you a story about this topic... Today my ex-secondary school mate invite me to have some coffee and chatting... He wanna sharing some good news to me... The good news is something about I may earn a lot of amazing experiences, happiness, knowledge and money... That thing he promote is totally awesome, I think many people will follow that thing but I made a different decision... My dream was to travel all around the whole world since I was young but the reason I unable to make it is because I didn't have a lot of money and today, the thing that my friend sharing with me able to let me earn a lot of money and make my wish come true but I had choose to reject that invitation.. I choose a simple boring lifestyle and rejected an amazing lifestyle.... @~@!!!! Huh???!!! Am I crazy? I also wondering... I just know at that moment all I think was I want to live a simple life, that's all and nothing more... Maybe people will say I am coward... My answer is yes, I am a super duper coward, for me , simple lifestyle is the happiest thing ever!!! Hahahaha, I think I really crazy....

Know or Don't Know...

  Know or don't know, which one you more prefer? Normally, human will automatically choose to know but they didn't think deeply before they choose.... Why I say so? Okay, Let me ask you back first before I answering your why...When your face a thing that you don't know, will you think deeply first before choose? Or you just simply wanna know what is the truth so you just choose to know? See? The answer is you choose to know without think deeply because you only want to know the truth as soon as possible... So do you agree human will automatically choose to know whatever they can know? You will agree, right? Okay, now I'm going to tell you the scary part of choosing know... When you are choosing to know, you never think so much, it mean you don't even ready yourself to accept the answer yet when you make your decision... So when you get the truth that you unable accept it, you will disappointed and lost or do some stupid stuff to make yourself wake up... Sometime know too much is not a good thing because once you know it, you will try to think many ways to prevent it and at the same time, you won't be happy anymore except nervous and scare... We like to know many time because we feel that after we know all the things, we feel more safe but the truth is not, after you know everything, you won't feel safe but you will feel more worry and lost because you don't know how to handle the thing those you know... If I can choose, I wanna choose to be don't know because you don't know, mean you still have a short period to be happy some more before you face it... If you already know it before it happen, you are unable to happy anymore but just worry till it happen...

How to make people happy?

  How to make a person which in a bad mood situation become happy? It is too hard for me... If kids, that was very easy, I very well in make a kid happy back when the kid was sad.. But other than kids, I unable to make them be happy back when they were sad.... I'm wondering, what can I do to make people happy back? Anyone can give me advises? I want to learn the way to make people happy back because I don't want look my friends or people I know in sad condition.... Sometimes, I feel myself so kepo... People' things are people' things, why I so busy body, care this care that, kepo this kepo that, till the end, I only get bad rejected and hate by people.... Why I so stupid? Why I always doing somethings that I no need go do? I too easy care people' things... I am that kind of people which kepo people' things kepo till forget my own things.... Is it a good habits? Or that is bad habits? I want to change this habits, I don't want care too much, but the answer is I unable to change this habits... It is already become my lifestyle mode.... My friend told me she wanna suicide, wanna leave this world... At that moment, my mind was thinking why don't I suicide with her but till the end I encourage her not to suicide because it is not worth at all... If I wan suicide, I will do it myself but I won't call people accompany me suicide because I know this action is too awful stupid, only myself can do this stupid stuff... >.<

Soul~~~~

  Everyone has a soul in their heart... God is so powerful, God able to create many soul because in this world, we are unable to find a human that same soul with us... God gives us freedom, let us choose our own ways... So that, souls will change very fast, if that person choose to be good, the soul is strong... If that person choose to be bad, it means the soul is weak and get hurt.... Do you have strong soul or weak soul in your heart? Do you know? How we make ourselves clear? It is easy... Let's us take a look... Around you have a guy or lady that are super duper kind? He or she always smile and let you feel he or she is angel... Between your friends, do you have this kind of friends? This kind of people are having a strong soul, they clear about what they want... How about a weak soul? Between your friends, do you have some friends that easy to be emo, sad, disappointed, think too much or pessimistic? That kind of people are having a weak or get hurt soul, he or she need your cares and encourages... I am a person that having a weak and get hurt soul... I easy become emo, sad, pessimistic and think too much... I feel so stress, my friend said, if you want to release from stress, you should learn how to put down first... Honestly, it is too hard to put down because I am a person that easy to care too much.... haizzzzzzzzzz

Serious equal to lose?

  I'm so wondering... Is it after we get serious in something, then it mean we sure lose? Serious is a bad thing? Base on common sense, serious is a good attitude... I feel my serious was too over already... My serious may hurt people... I also don't like my own serious... But when I'm not serious, people around me say I'm to annoying... Once I be serious, people around me say they hate my serious face pula... Many friends told me I shouldn't live at the way how people looked at me... I tried to live my for my own, but seem that I had failed... In the end, I still live for how people look at me... I wanna learn how to control serious because I very tired to getting hurt some more... I very fed up with myself... Why I so weak? Why I so easy to care so much? Why I so easy beat by people comments? I just wanna be the real me... I treat people nice but people won't treat me nice back... I know I treat people nice doesn't mean people should treat me nice back but at least don't hurt me or treat me cold, right? I'm wondering..... Should I serious? Should I be nice guy? Or should I be bad guy? Bad guy hard to get hurt? Is it true? But I don't want hurt people also don't want people hurt me.... 

Tired

  Feel so tired... Not just tired is physical, it is also tired in mental and one more, is my heart also feel tired... Physical tired is because feel so boring about my life, I had tried to do many things to make my life be more interesting but seem that it failed...The more I tried, the more I disappointed and face more problem... Mental tired is because all the things that happened around me were too challenging... Challenging is equal to interesting activities, for me is not... Challenging is equal to mental suffering activities... Facing all those fake people and unfair things... Urghhhhh! Gosh!!! I am going to fall! May I quit???!!! Heart tired is because I scare human... The more we believe someone the more danger is getting close... I worry I unable to handle the situation if someone that I very believe betray me.... Gosh! I feel wanna leave this world... Should I just R.I.P(Rest is peace) ???? I think I should..........

Liar

  Why this world is full of liar? No matter where you are, there are many liars beside you... I am so fed up with this! Liars, may you stay away from me? I don't like to be friends with liar... I am a straight person, if you don't like me or beh siok me, just straightly tell me, no need act or lie at there... Isshhhhhh!!!!!!!!! Almost want to be crazy... Why I so care about liar!!!! I force myself not to care but I still care a lot what they said... Why a liar can lie to someone that believe them so much? They heartless? They cold blooded? Should I hide myself in a safe house in my heart? I wondering..... Maybe I should change, be cold blooded and don't care about anythings anymore, be a selfish and quiet person... Today I don't know what to write some more... My mood not so good.. Why my life has many liars? Is this a challenge for me? To train me to be more independent? Be more success? Or be a perfect liar? I hate to be an actor! I straight, that is my real style, accept my straight or just stay away from my straight! Ish!!!!!!!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~~~

Greedy

  Everyone in this world also have a same attitude which is greedy, no matter babies, kids, teenagers, youths, adults or old folks, no one is not greedy... Just see how are their greedy level... Babies', kids' and old folks' greedy level are the lowest one.. Why I say so? Things that baby want is only their mother, father and milk... Things that kids want are just play and fun... Things that old folks want are just a simple retired life... Then how about teenagers' and youths' greedy level? These two groups' greedy level no need let me explain because you all are experiencing now time to time.. What teenagers and youths want? Shopping, play game, buy car, buy shirt, buy pants, want to be in love, smoke, drink alcohol drinks, pub or clubbing, play bowling, and some or even more....
  People able to learn up many things but doesn't mean that after learnt up all the things then that person able to do all the things by himself or herself... Let's say those things are 5 different workers' duty, you call someone to learn all 5 different duty and after that person learnt you let that person individually do those 5 different duty... How can a person do 5 person works? Even though you have give some advantages to that person but that person just accept some advantages from you then you already have the right to command that person done 5 person duties??? Maybe you think like this, you may save a lot of moneys because you spent one person salary to hire a person that can finish up 5 person jobs... This is count as greedy also... Will all the human in this world stop greedy? Will it come true? 

World

  I'm getting more disappointed to this world, I really very tired to live in this world, may I just leave this world? Sometime I'm wondering why my thinking are so negative... The factor of my thinking become negative are environment, mind thinking, people who appear in my life, incident that I faced since young till now and I have a good brain that able to remember many things for a long time... Haiizzzzzz...
  Sometime I think that why will I have this all ability and incidents... I prefer to be a simple normal guy instead of being a guy that may think a lot in the same time... I really getting tired and tired, I almost wanna exhausted already.. People say comfort only given to those people which already rest in peace... Honestly, I need comfort but this world may not allow us to get comfort once we still survive in this world.. May I be selfish? May I just put down all things and just leave this world like that? But I had tried to imagine if I'm going to leave this world, will I really dare to just leave this world? The answer is I unable to leave this world easily and smoothly, I still unable to put down anythings although I always saying I wanna give up and leave this world... I really need to hide up myself in the middle of forest and live in deep of forest, that is the only way I can get the comfort and peace that I want....

Environment

  Environment...  This is very important factor for building a person's future, did you agree with me? Why I say so? I may explain to you what I understand about the different of environment...
  Good environment... Many people say if people grow up in a good environment, they will be a nice person but did you think so? For me, NO!!!! Why? People that grow in a good environment, they will be hard to be nice in future because they not easy to feel thankful maybe some still think that normally this kind of good environment must be given to them, only they suit for it... People grow in good environment is not very independent because all the things they want, parent will automatically prepare for them... But they will have a lot of happiness and sweet memories.....
  Bad environment... A lot of people grow in a bad environment, they will be very tough and very independent in future, maybe you will think that is a good things... Honestly, that is a good things that bring bad things... Why I say so? People which grow from bad environment, they do anything also only can count on themselves, no matter they tired or hurt, they still need to stand up and finish up those things they handle, they unable rest or show tired, they may just acting tough and getting stronger by forcing themselves... Even though in the end they are success but they had lost their happiness and sweet dream, in the end they just own sadness, tired, bad memories and negative thinking about this world....
  I'm wondering... Which environment should I give to my future son and daughter.... I want them be tough and independent but not in a bad environment and also not in a good environment... Bad environment is not good for them, good environment is too good for them already... OMG! Headache.....

Selfish...

  Selfish, this is a basic attitude that own by everyone who live in this world... Many people say selfish is a bad attitude but some say selfish is because they want to protect themselves... Once people heard about selfish is protecting himself or herself, they will argue with him or her because they unable accept this definition....
  Selfish is not bad or not good... Just we cannot over selfish or totally no selfish because if you over selfish, nobody will stay close with you anymore, if you totally no selfish, people will try to find ways to get advantages from you... haizzzzz.... Why human must be like that? Some are over kind until always get bully.. Some are over greedy until all people hate him or her... Is it all so important to us? I had think before... If this world no more money, no more control, no more rules, how will this world look like, it will be very worst... But now day, world are still controllable but human very worst... Worst world and worst human, which one you prefer? I prefer worst world because in worst world you may survive once you strong enough... I hate live in a world that full with worst human because those kind of human only can survive once they have a powerful mind that may make himself or herself do what he or she want and doesn't care how people get hurt because of their action... World is doesn't change worst, the things that change worst is human... Getting and getting worst time to time.... End of the world please....

Fake

  This world is containing a lot of fake human that always acting in front of us... Why they like to act? Won't they feel uncomfortable when be a liar? Why human cannot honest till human? Scare will hurt someone else after honest? It was just a suck excuses that giving himself or herself a chance to be liar... When he or she not yet been attacked, he or she will act like supporting that person... Once that person attack he or she, he or she will straight away change his or her attitude, back attacking that person by spreading that person bad... Woah! So awesome! Actor award sure have his or her place.... Please la, don't be like that la... Be honest be true is very difficult meh?
  Hiding is a better way? I think so, I wanna hide myself in middle of the forest.... Why I wanna hide myself? The reason is because of human, sometime I hate some fake human... I always stay alone, maybe other people will feel my attitude was bad but i like to keep that bad attitude because that bad attitude is able to keep fake people stay away from me... Fake people hate people that can see through them and always attacking them by finding fake people's fake part.... I want to show my bad attitude always so that fake people won't stay close with me... Maybe many people will laugh I stupid because I do like that will lost many friends and in the end I'm alone always... I scare lonely but I more scare fake people... So I choose to be alone because I don't want get hurt anymore....

Decision

  Today let's us talk about decision.... Now days, people are making decision easily without think deeply, this is the factor why people getting hurt easily... Many people say life will be happy once you think simple and positive... So many people just simply make decision without thinking that ending... For example, my buddy made a decision to go some where else learns independent, she never think what will happen once she leave... She was so brave! If I say make that type decision are too danger and crazy, people will just simply replied me, why you think so much, thinking is the wall that stop you step forward... Or some will say thinking is problem, don't think and just go ahead is success... Why I wanna think many things before I make decision? It is because I been hurt many time and injured badly.. I want myself stay in a safe area but not danger area... If I do like that, will appear a lot of people say I shouldn't make that decision, they will say I should step forward.... I'm wondering, I just wan simple and safe area type life only... It is wrong? Too simple is a fault? Too safe too normal cannot? I like normal boring life also cannot? Why always stop me to get a comfort life that I want?

Goodbye

  Everyone in this world don't like to face farewell party, farewell dinner or farewell meeting... Tomorrow, one of my buddy gonna moving to Perlis for 4 months... Omg!! I worry I unable suitable myself without that buddy, she was like and monkey, she bring happiness and noisy to my life~XD Wish she doesn't look at this, or else I gonna leave this world soon~XD 4 months is not a short period.. 4 months = 120 days = 2880 hours = 172800 minutes = 10368000 seconds... Omg!!! So long time...
  Today I realize something else, it was a sentences which is 'All the best!'... It was a powerful sentence, it may encourage people and showing people that you are supporting him or her.... But today I wrongly use this sentence, when my boss giving me idea about decorate that thing, one of my colleague replied it maybe works, can try it... I add one more sentence which is wish you all the best ya~XD Sound like I supporting my boss do for her own.... I know it was bad but sometime she giving some terrible idea that may bring me in danger... So I use to be run away from her terrible idea to protect myself~XD

Accident

  Many people will turn into nervous when heard the word 'Accident' because it bringing some bad news always... Sometimes it also bringing good news but the percentage of bringing good news was too low... so many people will automatic scare the word 'Accident'....
  Today I almost nearly met a bad news type accident and i really met an accident but don't know it can count be good accident or bad accident... Let's talk about bad news accident first... Today I was almost late to work, so I rode very fast, faster then common day... When I reached a corner, I nearly accident at there... 3 years ago, I had an accident at the corner, I hurt badly until I sent to hospital by ambulance... Luckily today i just nearly accident again but not really accident, thanks God for protecting me.... First accident was done, now let's talk about the accident I met but I not sure it was good or not... This accident is about I accidentally meet someone that I so care in a kopitiam.. That scene was the someone was having lunch with a guy and the someone smile to me and helping the guy picked up cold drinks and gave it to that guy, that scene was so sweet... At that moment, I feel so happy because someone so happy now, at the same moment I feel not well in my heart... Am I jealous? I'm wondering what I thinking... Should I ask her? Should I just ignore it? haizzzzzzzzz.........

Care....

  Care... So many people like to say I don't even care but himself or herself is very care about those thing... People like to be a liar.. They thought they said they won't care then they will feel better.. It is doesn't work at all...
  I am a liar too... I like to say I don't care.. Honestly, I very care about it.. I'm a person that like to care so much... Even though many people tell me that once i don't care so much, I will be better... I'm so sorry, I unable to control myself not to care about it.. No matter it is small problem or big problem, I will automatically care so much... Care so much is not a good habits because once you care so much, you will make those people that you care feel so uncomfortable and frustrated...
  I would like to learn the way ignore but not care because I care too much... The more I care, the more my life getting worse... Should I be selfish? Should I be cold blood? Should I care so much? I don't know what should i do... Many people say we are live for our own but not live for others.. I always use this sentence to scold someone that not clear about himself or herself till he or she wakes up... Unfortunately, this sentence is powerless for me, it unable to wake me up but just making me more hard to make decision... What should I do? Care or don't care?
                              GOSH!!!!!!!!

Happy

  Happy... This word, everyone also know it's meaning, many people say want to be happy, it is very easy to done it... Do you think so? Is it really easy to be happy? In this realistic world? The answer is no answer~XD Why I say so? Okay, let me explain to you... If you are an optimistic person, you may easy to be happy because you have a positive mindset so that you wont feel bad or sad, you till just feel happy... Or if you are a negative person, you will very hard to be happy because when you want to be happy, your negative mindset will automatic gives you bad idea or bad comment, so that your emotion will turn down...
  Today I helping my buddy's mother moving house furniture, they worried those furniture too heavy until I hurt myself... At the first, I saw those furniture was too big, I thought it was heavy... After I lifted those furniture, I felt so thank God, it was not heavy at all because my working places' stocks were heavier than these.... After finished helping them, we enjoy a movie name '3 Idiots', that was a nice movie...
  When I reached home, I saw an uncle that he knew who am I... He look younger even his age was increasing... So, I asked him why he look younger every year, he just told me because he thought himself was young in heart and be happy always... I asked him how he be happy always in this realistic world? He just replied me that I just need to pray, pray and pray... Thank God for let me saw this uncle, I try to be happy... But just now at youth, some of youth asked me to be quite because I making noises at there... Erm.... When I happy, I will be very noisy like a hyper active person... Don't know I should be happy or not because I worry my happy will bring noises for other people which stay beside me....

Estimate and Confirm...

  Well... Everyone also know what is the different between estimate and confirm, am I right? Okay, what is estimate? Estimate is something that we unable to confirm but we bring out some answer through our calculation, guessing, common sense or other ways... the answer of estimate not accurate, maybe it only contains 50%... By the way, what is confirm? Confirm is something that you very sure, 100% sure that is the answer, that is call confirm....
  I met someone that make me feel that she was too fantastic, why I say so? She was over confident, all the things she estimated, she just tell you that she confirm that 100% right... But when those things that she estimated were wrong, I can confirm, she will always give same reaction which is showing her innocence face and said why will like this..... Lolx... What a nice reaction... You win, your estimation win....
  Just now went for play bowling with Sky, wow! He was too awesome! He had a well trained bowling skill, I watched he spin the bowling bowl and may make strike! Too awesome! I had done 5 strikes in 40 rounds... =~= Play 40 rounds, only strike 5 times... So shame... I not so well in play bowling but I felt so happy because bowling can release my stress.... Sky! So thank you for accompany me played bowling just now! I appreciate that moment! Thanks a lot!!!!!

Actor

  When I say the word 'Actor', people will only imagine those people who show from drama or celebrity show... Today, the 'Actor' that I wanna say is someone who stay close with us but acting time to time... Why I say so? Is it many actors stay close beside me? Many people wondering who was the actor... The answer is yes, many actors stay close beside with us... Actor is wearing different kind of masks time to time, he/she can be good, can be bad, can be poor, can be weak, can be tough, can be strong, can be many kind of expressions, actor was a well trained 'education'!
  This afternoon, one of the actors that appear in my life told me to be a nice person when I talk or anything due with Commander... When I recall my memory, the actor taught me not to be nice with commander last month when the actor was scolded by commander... Wow! You are awesome, you can be an angel, teach me to be nice, at the same time you also can be a devil, teach me to be bad... Erm.... Why you want to be actor? High salary? High class education? High potential? So sad, I used to be straight and honest...XD

Angry , Disappointed , Happy and Funny

  Today was so special because has angry, disappointed, happy, and sad in the same day... Thanks God for giving me today...
  First, angry story... I found a nonsense person, she was very awful, why i say so? Today she said loudly :"Once I involve in that war , I 100% will be the winner in that war... " Wow! That was amazing, she can shout loudly but when she doing things, those things that done by her just getting worse.... Please wake up, maybe you think you are full of confident but your behavior shows that you are over confident, we call it ego....
  Second, disappointed story... My buddy, she suddenly told me she was heart broken, wanna drink alcoholic drink to calm down herself, I tried to phone her and encourage her not to do that because I worry bad affect will fall on her after she over drinks alcoholic drinks... Unfortunately, she just ask me why drink alcoholic drinks is bad ? Then she just cut off my call.... Is okay, I never have the right to stop you, I just try....
  Third, happy story... This evening, my other buddy suddenly invited me go to Chew Jetty on tomorrow night but tomorrow my big boss is coming from KLHQ to our branches, so I maybe unable to attend her invitation... I try ask her to go there tonight and she said okay... When we both reached there, we thought there won't have anybody except both of us... We saw a group of teenagers and a group of old man sitting and chatting at there, we just sit at the middle of the bridge... After 30 minutes, a guy and a lady are coming too, they beside us, the guy look likes foreign people, he take off his shoes at first, then he suddenly take off his shirt too!! 0~0!! Oh my!!!!! I know he has nice body shape but he too awesome brave!!!! I get shocked but I felt funny, so my buddy and I both laugh lightly... When we go home, my buddy show me some mystery ghost house, so excited and happy because my buddy so scare at that moment~~XD
  Last one, sad story... This afternoon I received a message, the message is bringing some message about my brother's(brother in christ) father just passed away yesterday night... All of our church youth, brothers and sisters attend his father's funeral... Wish he able to accept the truth... May God bless him....
  Well, after finished my today story... I should sleep.... So tired and totally exhausted... Wish you guys have a sweet dream and good rest....

                         Good Night !!!!!!!!!!
                            zzzzZZZZZZ

Accept

It's been a long time I didn't update my blog...
This few days My emotions are not very stable, I may easily get in temper....
I wanna control it, but I had failed to control it...
I had learnt to see through thing, but I never learn to accept it...
Even though many people are saying that see through is same meaning as accept...
But I still unable to accept the truth after I see through it...
Maybe I should be more special, learn 1 more lesson which is learn how to accept the truth before see through it...
Wish you all won't face this kind of problem in yours life because it was not a nice experience or a good memory...

今天是10月20号，
昨天我没写Blog，
今天却发生不愉快的事情~~
今天6点多起身上厕所，
上完厕所，
老妈突然告诉我，
外婆去世了~~~
天啊！
我本来能继续睡觉的~
结过，
开着眼睛到天亮~~~
去到外婆面前，
我本来没事，
还有说有笑~~~
结过，
看着外婆的微笑照片，
我也对照片微笑，
可是，
我在笑的同时，
我眼泪一直流~~~
外婆，
你的大肥孙流泪了，
你笑你的孙哦？？？？
哈哈哈哈，
真是的，
眼泪怎么一直流？？？？

今天是10月18号，
今天好忙噢！！！
工作一整天没有停到，
太恐怖了吧，
你们的钱花不完的哦？？？
今天突然想去海边，
好久没去了，
心理压力越来越重，
难以透气，
现在非常想去海边~~
海边啊！
我来了！！！
出发！！！！

今天是10月17号，
惨了我！！
最近越来越有问题，
是不是我太久没去海边？
为什么最近都非常暴躁？
海边！
我真的很需要海边！
我想要发泄！！！！！！！
啊！！！
救命啊！！！！
我现在头脑空白！！！
我不知道想些什么！
我只知道，
我很不对劲，
精神里好像有座火山！！！
海边~~~~~~
我需要你！！！！

今天是10月16号，
某人，
我很对不起你，
我隐瞒了你~~~
我其实很在意你对他那么好~~
我不敢告诉你，
因为你一定会觉得我又再Emo，
你会觉得我又再胡思乱想，
其实不是我胡思乱想，
我是男生，
我清楚了解男生的想法~~~
你觉得没事，
不代表他对你没意思~~~
我不想因为他而和你吵~~
根本不值得，
所以我只好安静，
相信你~~~
这世界其实不复杂，
复杂的是住在这世界里的人~~~
难道不能活得简单一点吗？？？
海！
我很需要海！！！

今天是10月15号，
本来今天是公共假期，
因为公司有活动，
所以逼不得以去公司做工，
虽然说今天算ot，
可是明明是放假嘛~~~
突然很不自在~~~
没关系咯，
只好硬着头皮做工，
今天我一个大男人，
竟然被安排去站岗护肤品，
还要解释如何用，
我的天啊！
这分明就是在考我嘛~~~

放工了，
我去见某人，
看到某人我很开心，
可是，
看到某人安慰人家，
我心里很不舒服，
一直尝试和某人联络，
可能因为人多，
某人收不到我的信息，
我就一直看着某人，
某人很开心地聊天，
一直安慰人家，
抚摸人家的头，
我知道某人好心关心人，
可是我就是个醋鬼，
最后，
我忍不住，
发了最后的信息，
就安静地消失了，
回家的路途，
我越想某人安慰人家的画面，
我的眼泪一直流~~~
到家了，
我装得若无其事，
结果还是被某人拆穿~~~~
某人叫我相信某人，
要对某人有信心~~
某人，
我相信你~~
请某人别让我失望！！！

今天是10月14号，
今天是葡萄情人节，
我竟然在今天误会了某人，
我可能让某人失望了，
幸亏某人最后告诉我，
要不然我还真的像傻子，
什么都不懂，
什么都不知道~~~
我的天啊！
我真的是乌龟大笨蛋！！！

今天的我神不守舍，
在工作的时候，
不是做错这样就是做错那样，
而且还有很多东西没有准备好~~~
明天不知道怎样了，
我的天啊！！！！！！
不过我一点都不担心，
因为主耶稣在保守着我！
主耶稣也保守着弟兄姐妹们！
我们是有平安的！！

今天是10月13 号，
也是农历九月初九，
九王爷最后一天，
今晚很多人都回去看花车游行的~~~~
七早八早下起了长命大雨，
本来我想去教会，
结果因为下雨的关系，
我没去教会~~~
整个下午呆在家，
差点发霉了我！！！

刚刚做了mask，
好久没做mask了，
有点不习惯~~~
今晚一定好睡觉了！
因为今天下了整半天的雨！！
没什么好说，
因为呆在家，
什么事情也没遇见~~~
可以早早去睡觉，
享受爽爽的天气了！！！
晚安噢！！！！

今天是10月12号，
今天早上本来想早醒去晨跑，
本来有点懒惰，
当我比自己起身的时候，
开始下雨了，
借过我没有去晨跑，
继续睡觉，
嘻嘻嘻嘻嘻嘻~~~

今天是我和某人认识第十天，
哈哈哈哈哈，
虽然短短几天，
不过觉得非常充实！！！
刚刚在教会青少年学了一些东西，
生命中的石头~~~
生命中有不同的石头，
有大石头，
小石头~~~
大石头代表非常注重的目标，
二小石头代表琐碎的事情~~~
我觉得我一直注重琐碎事情，
而忽略了注重的目标~~~~
我一直注重琐碎事情，
所以常常会心情低落，
突然觉得自己很傻~~~~
不过，
今天总算让我学到宝贵一刻！！！
感谢赞美主！

今天是10月11日，
今天是第一次下那么多货，
今天总共下了188箱货，
我的妈丫！！
我的腰差点撑不住了！！！今天忙的东西好多，
而且在公司那边又给人家看我脸色，
我知道不可以乱给别人看颜色，
可是我不给，
别人就越来越过分~~~~

今天没得让某人看到我，
某人在教客人十字绣，
我在那边欣赏某人认真的一面，
那一部画面，
真的是很美很迷人！！
可惜某人没看到我，
不懂某人会不会想我~~
>.<

刚刚教会儿童老师们有聚会，
聊了很多东西，
也谈了很多问题，
也解答了很多问题，
说真的，
不谈开是个结，
谈开了却是个疤~~~
人乃是罪人~~~
没有义人活在这世上~~~
唉~~~~~

10月10号，
今天是星期四，
今天某人穿白色衣服经过，
某人本来应该不打算让我知道，
所以我一直等待某人经过，
一直望向窗口，
终于让我见到某人经过，
我立即开窗，
喊某人的名字，
某人被吓，
东张西望，
某人真的好可爱~~~
下午休息时，
我又偷偷去看某人，
当时某人在认真地做东西，
某人在做十字绣，
某人认真的样子好迷人噢，
我都被某人认真的样子给迷倒了~~
XD
我的每一天，
都是那么普通，
可是，
自从某人出现，
我的每一天不一样了，
我的每一天有了某人的存在，
我的每一天都充满色彩，
谢谢你，
某人！！！

今天是个非常普通的一天，
早上时间就这样过了~~
下午某人回来了，
某人走路去做工，
途中有经过我店，
可是某人没让我见，
而且还告诉我，
今天不能见我，
我的心好痛，
很不舒服。。。
心情突然很低落~~~
之后某人安慰回我，
我心情立刻恢复，
立刻开心回~~
某人啊~~
某人！
你是我的开心果~~
谢谢你的存在！！！

公司方面。。。。
无言，
真的事态恐怖了~~
人原来那么恐怖的~~~
为什么要那么虚伪噢？？？
难道不虚为，
会死吗？？？
我的天啊！！！
非常压力咯！！！

今天10月8号，
我还是和平常一样，
5.30起身上厕所，
然后打电话给某人，
可是今天一直打都没人听，
我很紧张，
我从5.30打到5.50。。。
我本来想放弃了，
可是我又担心某人睡不醒，
所以我祷告，
向上帝诉说，
求上帝让某人能醒，
而且还说，
我接下来打最后一次电话给某人，
如果某人接了，
就表示某人是我的Mrs. Right，
如果某人没接我电话，
某人就不是，
我就该会去睡觉了，
那时候，
我非常挣扎，
我想打，
可是我又怕某人没接，
最后我不小心打了过去，
我心想，
可不可以解除某人没接或有接，
就表示某人是不是我的Mrs. Right的那一句话，
想到一半，
突然某人接了我的电话，
我当时非常开心，
非常快乐，
很兴奋！！！
谋认真的是我的Mrs. Right ？
上帝啊！
请告诉我某人是否是上帝派来给我的天使？？
过后我就继续睡觉了~~~
XD

今天在做工，
我的心情真的是烂到！！！！！
老板真的太离谱了！！！
对！！
的确你是老板，
可是你可以别那么懒惰吗？？？
永远讲多过做，
讲就那么厉害，
做，
永远都是你分赴别人帮你做~~~
你是我们的头，
头有两种，
一种是Comander，
那种头没有用的，
虽然有想法，
有计划，
可是永远只会吩咐别人去动手做，
自己在那边领工劳。。。
Comander的头就是像我的头那一种，
烂到没有人有！！！
第二种才是成功的头，
第二种是Leader,
这种很厉害，
很多人会顺他或她的话做事，
原因很简单，
这种头，
会讲又会做，
有想法有做法有动工，
当然是人人佩服，
人人顺服的~~~
我公司的那一个，
只会灌输别人，
人与人之间其实是互相利用，
要提高自己的被利用价值，
这样才是成功的人，
我呸！！！
你喜欢利用人来帮你做事，
利用人来帮你完成你兰多做的工作就说吧~~
不用道理多过真理~~~~
非常讨厌现在的这个老板，
永远只会说，
不会做，
今天还说，
你们一个人负责一个设计，
想好了告诉她，
她允许我们才可以做，
那么说，
你什么都不用做？？
你只是做督工？？
公司付你薪水来做督工？？
公司请你来利用公司的员工来完成你的工作吗？？？

今天早上5.30 醒了，
然后打个电话给某人，
某人睡醒的声音好甜，
我很开心，
因为某人醒了，
然后我又继续睡觉了。。。

今天在做工的时候，
莫名其妙又再中枪，
同事告诉我，
有人过河拆桥，
利用完我，
又再对我不客气，
乱拿我来开枪了。。。
需要做到这样吗？
那人只会利用人？？
为什么一直要拿我来开枪？
你的问题我都一直帮你解决，
为什么你还是一直忘恩负义？？？

不管遇见什么事情，
对自己说：
“All is WELL！！！！！”
然后想着某人就好了。。。
那样我就很开心满足了～～～
某人已经睡觉了，
我也要睡觉了，
全世界的人们，
早点睡觉，
好好休息去噢～～～
晚安！！！

今天是教会儿童圣经考试，
一到教会，
Joshua就立刻跑过来我身边了，
要我抱他，
我抱起了他，
结果他就帮我“脸部按摩”，
我的天！
好痛！
他简直把我的脸当着面团来打！！
我的脸很痛，
他却在那边笑~~~
=～=''
到最后才发现，
原来今天是她的生日！！！

教会聚会完毕后，
我还没回家，
我去看一个人，
那人很可爱，
整天吃lolipop，
还整天帮人“抓痒”，
哈哈哈哈，
看到那人，
心情好多了，
不错噢，
专家说：
“甜品能让人开心。。。”
我觉得我不需要甜品，
去看那人就好了，
也许那人会觉得我傻了~~~
XD
看了那人，
我才回家，
真是的，
哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。

今天睡到自然醒，
真的是爽到！！
幸福啊！！！
今天下午突然下了大雨，
5分钟后，
大雨就停了，
真的事来匆匆，
去也匆匆。。。

下午在家看了一部戏，
戏名是“3idiots”，
是一部印度片，
很搞笑又很感动！
看了这部戏，
看透了很多东西~~
人为什么不能简简单单生活？
为什么一定要复杂化？？
当我们面对困难时，
别忘了，
不是自己承受的压力最大，
而是自己的心脏承受最大的压力！
每当我们面对困难时，
先安抚自己的心，
对心说：
“All is well !”，
虽然安抚了心，
困难根本无法解决，
不过，
你所安抚的心会支持你，
让你勇于面对困难！！！
记得！
All is WELL !!!!

今天最开心的时间，
是在5.30 到7.15，
谢谢噢，
有你真好，
有你在的附近，
心情好很多~~~
^//////^

今天早上，
我自己一人驾车去飞机场，
好开心噢，
原来驾车是那么容易的。。。
而且还很舒服，
嘻嘻嘻嘻，
不过我还是喜欢摩托，
自由自在，
可以穿梭车辆的隙缝~~
XD

很好笑，
我今天学会了，
我永远是错的，
比你高一点的都一定是对的！
太强词夺理了！！！
你虽然是有权力，
不过做错事情，
拜托，
请你认错吧，
在那边一直说别人的错，
自己死不认错，
以为自己什么都对，
还常常叫别人，
了解谁的错先才指责，
明明是你的错，
你却不承认还指责我！！
烂咯你！！！

今天天气好冷噢，
最近一直下雨，
你们要好好照顾自己啊，
不要生病噢！！！
感谢主保守我们的出入，
大家都平安！

今天我见识到，
什么叫做被人拆穿还死撑说谎。。。
明明证据摆在眼前，
你们俩还能说谎说得那么自信！！
你们这一对情侣好可怜，
明明是不被允许的，
偏偏要在一起，
这个证明你们俩是真爱，
不过再爱的过程，
其中一方为了爱而出卖了规矩，
那个不叫真爱了，
那个叫用爱迷惑而导致犯错~~~~
拜托你醒醒，
Ta是利用爱来骗你，
让你做Ta的工具，
还是Ta真的很想在一起，
这两个你搞清楚了没有？？？
不要为了爱，
而蒙蔽双眼去犯罪~~~~
（事先申明：
男主角和女主角是我面对的人，
我只是个观众，
看他们俩演习的观众~~~）

今天我差点迟到，
驾摩托冲去公司，
幸亏，
及时赶到！
感谢赞美主的保守！

今天我见识到，
什么叫说谎的最高境界！
我的天啊！
真的是高招！
说谎说得像呼吸般的柔顺~~~
太厉害了，
不懂得人还真的相信了~~~
我心在想，
何必呢？？
需要做到如此吗？
根本不被祝福，
为什么要坚持？
是真爱，
还是真爱钱？？
人为什么要这么现实？？
这世界难道只能如此？？
真的是无奈！！！

今天十月一号咯！！

昨天星期一，
是九月三十号，
九月的最后一天，
我的天！
我竟然忘了写Blog，
恨自己咯！！！

今天是十月的第一天，
是一个好的开始还是一个坏的开始呢？
我很犹豫，
我现在的人生目标到底是什么呢？？
我好迷惑~~~
钱？
爱情？
人生？
只能三选一吗？
不可以三样一起有吗？？

为什么人要那样虚伪？
明明做了，
却装得若无其事~~~
明明事情发生着，
却说慌说没事。。。
好假，
好虚伪！！
人，
是在太恐怖了~~~~

今天凌晨4.30起床，
5.30陪老板去机场，
然后帮老板驾车回来，
我第一次驾那么远的车，
而且当时下很大雨又刮风，
我只好停车，
等风停了，
快快驾车回家，
幸亏我还是安全到家了，
下车后，
心跳好快，
好紧张噢~~~
><''

今天,
姨丈把单人床的床架拿来给我了，
下午已经把床架装好，
嘻嘻嘻嘻嘻嘻嘻嘻，
我的单人床好高，
兴奋到~~~！！！
XD

今天早上累了，
睡过头，
没有去教会，
好想念我的孩子们啊~~~
T.T
不管了，
累了，
今晚就早点休息了，
各位晚安噢！！
^_^

今天早上终于醒了，
七早八早跑去登山，
一大早到那边，
遇到一群学院生，

有一位身形较大的，
一看到就尖叫，
他不想爬山，
我和他们在同一个地点出发，
我自己一人走，
所以很快~由于昨晚下雨，
山路很滑，
我很怕我自己跌倒，
走到半路，
整群的猴子在那么瞪我，
我瞪回它们，
它们就走掉了，
我就继续爬，
不久我就到3号山了，
本来打算停下来休息，
却怕等下懒惰，
所以继续爬，
过了很久，
终于到5号山了，
很满足，
空气很清新，
环境很宁静，
休息好了就开始下山，
当我回到3号山的城门，
我看到刚刚的那一群学院生，
体形大的男生喊：
“Yeah !
终于到了！！！
可以牌照然后下山了！！！”
结果他的朋友告诉他还有5号山，
他立刻面无表情，
可怜他~~~
我继续下山。。。
终于到了山脚！！
我很开心也很惊讶！！！
我8.10am上5号山，
我9.30am到山脚~~
我只有了1小时20分钟，
哇啊啊啊啊，
有点疯狂了！！！！
今天好累，
明天要送人飞机，
那人看到我爬山，
竟然回复说：
“你是要逼我上飞机之前赶犯法的事情？？”
那人怕我今天太累，
明早睡不醒~~~
还是现在去睡觉比较好！！！
拜拜！！！~~~~

今天早上幸亏我自己自然醒，
因为我糊涂到把闹钟设置在星期六，
可是今天只是星期五~~~
真是的我。。。。
>///////<

今天驾摩托去做工的时候，

路途中差点撞倒一位路边的马来女子，
她被吓倒大喊，
我也被吓倒冒汗~~
幸亏我们俩都安全无事。。。

今天公司突然慰劳我们，
我们的午餐超级丰富，
吃到我都喊怕！
很开心的是，
明天星期六，
我现在要睡觉了，
希望明早我能早醒，
然后去登山，
好久没去登山了。。。
有点怕自己不能~~
>//////<

今天早上，
出门做工的路途中，
在我对面路，
发生了一起车祸。。。
A摩托在等绿灯，
B摩托在后面来，
B摩托没排队，
B摩托驾出另一条路，
渠道最前面时刚刚好绿灯，
A摩托就看到绿灯，
就自然地转油门，
B摩托就以为自己很厉害，
冲过去，
结果差点撞上A摩托，
A摩托看到立即停下来，
B摩托成功闪过A摩托，
去翻了摩托~~~
B摩托竟然无理取闹地起身骂A摩托，
天啊！！！
明明是B摩托不遵守规则，
怎么发生车祸，
B摩托却强词夺理呢？？
现在的世界是这样的吗？？？

这世界很复杂，
身边的人大多数都是双面，
好折磨啊~~~~
为什么要那么双面呢？？
嘴里一套，
现实有一套~~~
而且说得那么好听，
背后却做那么难看的东西~~
好虚伪，
为什么要那么虚伪，
直接不好吗？？
真是的！！！

今天星期三，
今天做工开始学新东西，
可是很好笑，
我觉得我还可以吸收，
却被骂，
不要那么急，
他们要我吸收，
问题是，
我已经吸收了啊，
我要学快不行吗？？
他们真的很好笑，
我不要的时候，
他们逼我要，
当我要的时候，
他们却逼我不要。。。。
找事啊？？！！！

今天放工回家，
路途中，
车子真的好多，
什么大日子噢？
怎么那么塞车的哦？
真是的，
车子越来越多，
温室效应也越来越严重，
我们的生活也越来越压力。。。。

刚刚看到一句很好的话，
在这个世界上，
我永远不是最失败的那个，
因为我永远是更失败的那个~~~
我的天！
这句话，
虽然很悲观，
不过蛮贴切的嘛~~~
>。<

今天，
算是不错又不是很好的一天，
七早八早来了一位无理取闹的人，
同事好心向她解释，
她却骂同事为什么没有好好告诉她，
问题是你没有好好问，
干嘛拿人家来出气。。。
真是的！

今天来货，
72箱而已，
轻而易举，
一下子搞定了，
然后工作继续运作，
继续打价钱。。。
突然一位女同事告诉我，
这个星期六Sunshine一天大减价，
问我有去扫货吗，
还教我帮她扫货，
她真的是可爱到~XD
刚刚放工的时候，
有一辆摩托想超越我，
哪里知道我速度不慢，
而且当时是弯路，
他差点翻摩托，
危险到~~~~
我驾快，
可是我是看好才驾快~~~

今天，
Erm。。。
七早八早心情不是很好，
本来说好要做的事情，
工作同事一件也没做，
还在那边给我看无辜的表情。。
拜托，
他是在演习还是真的无辜？
有时候觉得自己想太多，
觉得他真的不会，
可是有时候他却让我觉得他在扮白痴，
他其实会做的，
只是在假装说不会，
把所有工作都给我做。。。
我真的不知道我要怎样面对他。。。

今天没发生什么事情，
唉~~~
除了工作事情，
目前应该没问题吧。。
心里一直在想，
世界为什么一定要如此？
难道一定要那么现实吗？
人不为己，
真的会天诛地灭吗？？？
拜托，
为什么要把世界变得如此复杂？
安安定定，
简简单单地过生活，
难道不行吗？？？
这世界太复杂了！！！

今天我突然很早就去教会了，
那感觉真的不一样，
一大堆小孩子七早八早就欺负我了，
而且其中一个还在我身上留下痕迹。。。
恺杰狠狠地在我颈项留下疤痕，
真实的，
坏蛋到。。。。
而且还拳我老二。。。
恺杰，
你未免太厉害了吧？？
恺杰乖乖了，
却来了Joshua，
这个更加厉害，
对我拳打脚踢，
拳拳到老二，
借过我生气了，
把他抱起来，
训他，
他却哭了，
我就问他，
Joshua，
如果我像你打我那样打你，
好吗？
他说不要，
还说不会打我了，
我就抱起他，
他笑了。。
可是。。。。。
又在打我了~~~~
天啊！！！

回家路途遇上一位老路人，
那路人身上有股味道，
就是“黄金”味，
味道很浓，
我在他附近，
我嗅到味道，
很辛苦却不敢说，
因为想给路人面子，
老路人走了之后，
我就在想，
如果我老了以后，
尿失禁或者大便在裤里，
我觉得自己很无助。。。
明明不想，
却控制不了~~~
人总会老，
面对这些问题，
还真的需要勇气，
老人家其实很勇敢！！！

刚刚看了一部戏，
结果眼泪失禁了~~~~
那部戏是“七号房的礼物”，
是部韩国电影，
本来写着喜剧片，
所以我去看，
看了之后，
原来是个感动悲剧片。。。
一个好爸爸，
为了女儿，
宁愿吭黑猫，
接受死刑，
来换取女儿的未来。。。
我的天！！
这部戏太感动了！！
真的是值得一看！！！！
希望你们都可以欣赏！！！
网址是：http://tom365.com/movie_2004/htm/15192.html

今天本来想6点起身，
然后去青年公园，
爬Moon Gate5号山的，
哪里知道，
昨晚太吃睡，
今早却睡过头，
没得去爬山，
失望咯。。。。
因为如果不早早去爬山，
下来的时间就会很迟，
越早爬上越好。。
没办法了，
山啊山。。
下个星期才来探望你！！！

刚刚摩托的汽油没了，
去加油站打油，
打好油后，
开始回家不久的路边，
有一群青少年在路边走路，
突然有一位青少年，
不小心失步，
跌倒了，
膝盖还撞到马路边的边缘，
我的天！！
那一下，
肯定是痛到！！！！！！
青少年的朋友笑得非常大声，
周围的人都注意那跌倒的青年，
真是可怜他~~~~
回想一下，
觉得自己很残忍，
没义气，
记得有个朋友在我面前跌倒，
我有问候伤势，
不过在问候伤势之前，
我竟然笑了~~~
此时此刻，
突然觉得自己没义气又残忍。。。。。
对不起。。。

昨天星期五，
出去到很晚才回家，
所以没有upload我的blog。。。
拜托，
我出去很晚，
不代表我去pub或者clubbing，
很多人会这样说，
因为昨晚刚刚好是Cacoon开张。。。

昨天，
发生了很多事情，
第一件，
本来在讨论一些事情，
结果讨论到像要开战，
我的天啊！
不了解清楚我们想什么，
就拜托别自以为是的下定论，
你的确知道规则，
可是你知道我们讨论的不是规则，
而是人情味吗？？？
起码也让人家说完嘛。。。
亏还说要懂得尊重别人，
别人才会尊重自己，
你都没有尊重别人，
别人怎么可能傻傻去尊重你？

第二件事情，
当要问问题的时候，
正常人会想清楚该问什么才问。。
为什么他老是那么单纯，
问错问题，
却觉得自己问对了问题呢？？？
是不是很可爱一下？？

第三件事情，
突然有人很大声地说：
“不要去想那么多就是最好的做法。。。”
Erm。。。。
如果不去考虑那么多，
是否要跌进陷阱的时候，
也不要去想那么多？
当作是最好的做法呢？？？

昨天被一人讲醒我了，
她收到的创伤，
阴影，
面对的人，
面对的世界，
简直让我目瞪口呆，
谢谢她说告诉我的一切。。。。
获益不浅！！

今天是农历八月十五，
月好圆噢~~~
今天，
erm，
老实说，
不是很开心，
觉得越厉害的人，
会自动拥有越多的东西做。。。
这个世界为什么如此的现实啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~

平常午餐我都是吃RM1.50，
今天公司出钱慰劳我们，
我的午餐今天是RM8，
当老板娘算我的饭钱的时候，
她眼睁睁地看着我，
问我说：
“小子，
你中字啊？
怎么那么丰富噢？”
我笑笑回答：
“没有啦，
公司付钱的。。。”
今天的午餐真的是很饱！！

今天是八月十五，
公司让员工们今天5点放工，
我们都很开心，
时间来到4.30了，
我们迫不及待想关门。。。
哪里知道，
突然门铃响了，
一位大客户进来了，
天啊！！！
美梦灭了~~~~~~~
那位客户搞到我们5.30才放工，
不过也不错，
难得第一次5.30放工。。。。
^o^V

刚刚下去夜市买裤子，
好贵啊，
汽油涨价，
通话膨胀，
两件普通裤子竟然RM21。。。
哇靠！
打劫啊~~~~~~~
真实的，
好一个现实世界~~~

今天早上出门去做工的路途中，
我差点发生了两次意外，
第一次很恐怖，
我差点被车压扁，
差点变成Roti Canai。。。。。
=_=|||
第二次没那么危险，
闪闪一下就安然无恙了。。。。
真实的，
危险到~~~~~

今天好累，
心里像很多东西，
精神很累，
为什么，
为什么，
为什么。。。。。
唉~~~~~~
无奈。。。

刚刚看到一句话：
“不关别人的事，
是我自己多事。。。”
这句话。。。。
很真实，
今天的我也许有点低落，
有点悲观，
可是。。。。
我真的觉得很累~~~~
唉，
世界和时间，
能停顿吗？
一个人静静的时候，
时空会停留在那一秒吗？
那一秒的情景应该很迷人吧？

今天很迟放工，
因为今天公司有活动，
大概11点才到家，
我的床啊，
还是你最好，
让我靠靠嘛~~~~~
>//////////<

今天下午工作的时候，
电话突然响起了，
是宇凡打来，
他约我一起吃午餐，
我很惊讶，
心想他该不会是看到我昨晚写的东西，
所以今天约我吧。。。。。

不过，
不管怎样都好，
我很开心，
老兄，
真的是很久很久没与你聊天了！！！

今天在公司，
忙得死去活来，
一会儿又跑上，
一会儿又跑下，
Projecter坏了，
KL总部拿一部过来借我们用，
哪里知道，
Screw不一样，
装不上去，
幸亏，
最后我们把它绑上去。。。。
活动进行得很顺利，
感谢赞美主的保守！！

刚刚驾摩托放工回家的路途，
Relau山路没有路灯，
道路漆黑一片，
整条道路仿佛剩下我一人，
好自由自在，
驾摩托驾到忘我，
差点让人家撞我，
我的错，
遮住他的路。。。
其实，
请黑一片的感觉蛮不错的嘛。。。。
^_^

真的是很久很久没写Blog了，

我懒惰了蛮久一下的嘛~~~~
>//////////<

这段时间发生了好多事情，

我想要爱情，

可是，

爱情来了，

我真的能把握吗？

还是，

我会缩水~~~~
唉。。。。。。。。。。
无奈。。。。。
=_=||||

我越来越像宅男了，

整天只会呆在房间里，
很少参Yandy , Kelly ，Jessy 和Xuanting 了
不懂他们最近怎样了，
只知道她们在为考试拼命着。。。
加油啊你们！！

很多朋友都去读大学了，
比如：
宇恩，莉珊，毓娃。。。。。
这三个是我的好朋友，
三个都远走读书了。。。。。
你们好好读书，
千万别学坏啊！！！

最近终于和alex沟通回，
老兄啊，
你最近还好吗？
生活充实吧？
宇凡，
你终于从KL回来了，
暂时还没和你见面，
期待着与你见面。。。。。
至于还有一位，
那个乌龟王八蛋。。。。。
“翔隆”十八掌！！！
你闪到哪里去了？？？！！！
>_<!!!!
突然没了你的消息，
你打算几时回来啊？？？！！
真是的！！
时常来去无踪！！！！

今天去修理摩托，
车牌破了，
本来只是修理车牌，
那位好先生就说：
“小子，
你的黑油到底几久没换了？”
我回答：

“Erm，大概两个月咯。。。。”
他就告诉我摩托的知识，
所以我就换黑油，
钱包大出血！！！！
换后，
他又说：
“小子，
你的plug好像也坏了，
这个不好开玩笑，
该换了”
我又换了，
我的妈丫！！！
钱包！！
你还好吗？？？
失血过多吗？？？
你还活着吧？？！！！
虽然你活着，
我心痛死了啦！！！！！！
真是的！

感谢主，
今天让我平平淡淡地过这一天，
谢谢你，
因为我还活着！

今天本来一切顺顺利利，
却因为我的疏忽，
搞砸了气氛，
不过感谢赞美主！
今天还是撑过了！！！

明天还有继续加油！！
很累不过很刺激！
而且很有满足感！
工作虽然多，
不过容易上手！
乐观一点！
乐观一点！

好久没有写blog了咯........
最近面对的事情也太多了........

从一个乐观，
开怀大笑，
无理取闹，
超级无敌大无聊的我，
变成一个充满负面思想，
自以为是，
无药可救的家伙......

够了！！！
全部都够了！！！
我是时候停止这些愚蠢举动.....

我失去了很多身边朋友，
活该，
这是我自找的，
我太自以为是了.......
我很谢谢当初陪着我的他们，
谢谢他们在我生命中出现过，
我这得很希望他们能再次出现在我的生命中！！！！

我明天就换新工作了，
我来来去去换了很多份工作，
去年两年我已经换了四次工作，
爸爸妈妈开始对我失望，
身边的人听到我又在换工作，
都微微笑地说，
又在换噢？？？

我要下定决心了！！
我不可以因为从小到大被人说我三分钟热度，
我就真的顺着他们的意思，
做个三分钟热度的人......

我要反抗！！！
反抗三分钟热度的咒语！！！！
你离我远远吧！！！！！！
我下定觉醒要跟你拼了！！！！！！！

很多事情我都是用负面的思想来判断，
从现在开始，
我要学习如何用正面思想来判断！！
别人能做到！
为什么我不能！！
我要变！！！！！！！
变！变！变！！！！！！！！

哈哈哈哈哈哈
我很久没写东西了~~~
Blog
我回来了~~~
你近来好吗？？？
我是个傻子~~~ ^o^
我受了伤
也学会了很多东西
我从爱情里学会了很多东西
也从这世界学了很多东西
也从‘我可能不会爱你’这部电影里学到了很多东西

是我看透了吗？
还是我自欺欺人？？？
我应该生气？？？
应该气馁？？
应该低落？？
我也许会如此~~~
可是我很惊奇
我自己现在竟然没事了~~~
突然觉得我还不适合开始恋爱~~~
＞~＜
我最近面对很多不愉快
很多负面的东西
不过感谢主
我拥有朋友
拥有平安
拥有教会弟兄姐妹
拥有哥们陪着我
我没事了~~~
^_^

我最近遇见许多事情
我和女朋友分手了
我老爸突然间进医院
我工作方面遇到压迫感
我人生迷失方向
我脑子一片空白
我以为自己撑不过
结果经过一些鼓励支持和领悟
我的心到现在还是平静

Alex
宇凡
翔隆
Ivan
Yaw Ting
毓娃
晓雨
Kelly
Xuan Ting
Sakura Ooi
Ah Yinqq
碧玲
Germaine
舒懿
你们这些哥们！！！！！
感恩有你们！！！
有了你们！！
我不能倒下了~~~~
^^
你们的鼓励陪伴支持
我还能活着~~
还能撑着~~
还能顶着~~

最近我得到一张卡
卡片这么说：
休息是为了走更远的路
安静是为了做更多的事
没有安静
会丧失目标
透过静默
能整理混乱
通过默想
可认识真理
认识自己及发现新可能

当我看到这些话
Alex
你知道我想什么了
对吧？？？
你教会我分析一切
我分析得很彻底
可以算是很彻底
分析得太离谱~~~~~~
哈哈哈
不过就因为分析得太彻底
也看到了
领悟到了
看透了~~~~~~~~~

谢谢你
在我生命中出现的每一个你
没有你
就没有今天的我