Ready

  Are you ready? When people asking us this question, we will just simply reply yes we are ready but when someone asking help from us, what answer we will give? You sure you really ready? Today our church is having performance at Han Chiang high school school hall, when is the turn for us to perform, many of us are getting nervous and feel not ready but recall back yesterday night memory, we said we are ready for the performance... Why people always like that? Always say but unable to do it? I am this kind of person too, I hate myself! Every time people asking me did I ready? I just simply reply I was ready but when the things in coming to me, I suddenly feel myself unable to handle it and honestly, I felt myself not ready before... In this world, that is impossible have anyone able to say they are ready because no one are ready to accept they death... Tomorrow I am going to know I gonna survive or I gonna die... Now so nervous but also feel calm... God is holding this all, I just give it to God... I full of sins... Maybe I should leave this world... But I didn't wanna leave this world even though I hate this world... I just wanna say I not ready...