Goodbye 2013

  Today is the last day of 2013, is going to be 2014... In the last day of 2013, many people are going to countdown but I alone in home... Many of my friends are going to pub or clubbing... I advised them not to go... It's kinda danger, I think they will feel I am a coward... For me, that is just wasting money to buy something to break our health even though the something is bringing happiness and exciting feeling.... 2013 is the best year I ever met because it gave me happiness, sadness, angry, disappointed, surprises, challenges, memorable story, good friends, bad friends, liar, angels, devils and many more.... I just want a simple normal life... 2014, would you let me pass through you smoothly? 

Impulsive action

  When we talk about impulsive action, many people will say they didn't have these such of stupid action, they have good behavior... See, they not dare to admit theirs bad... Many people have impulsive actions when they were facing some sudden incidents.... Not many people able to control themselves when they were getting nervous... I had done many impulsive action, sometime I get hurt, sometime I ruin the things, sometime I made right action but mostly I made the problem getting worst~XD I should learn to be patient... That is a difficult lesson for me because I am an aggressive dynamite... I easy to get angry, ego and emo.... So you all will see my impulsive actions many time in a day~XD
Please, I really need to success in learning patient... I don't want to be aggressive... But it is hard... However, I still need to try!

Common sense

  Common sense, is a thing that hard to handle and control because everyone has different common sense.. Some people have sensitive common sense, they will know what should they do in different situation... Some people don't have sensitive common sense, they won't able to know what should they do in different situation... Is it common sense is a special power that have when we were born? The answer is no! Common sense has another name which is sense from experience, why I say so? Common sense is able to train up through experiencing all problems... For example, first time facing problem like your friend fall into big deep drain, you will nervous and you don't know what should you do, you able to pull him up... And then other people try to find something to let him stand higher and pull him up... So... When the second time you facing this kind of problem, you will have common sense, you will calm down yourself and you will quickly find something to let the person stand more higher and rescue that person easily... Common sense can be train up by facing more and more problems... But now days people are very afraid to involve in any problems and cause people losing their common sense....

What should I do?

  What Should I do? I am so lost! I am wondering what should I do... I do this kena said I did wrong, I do that also kena said I did wrong too... I don't do anything also kena said I did wrong some more... Walao!!! I hate myself... I hate this world... I hate my life! Today I didn't have anything to write... I am too emo... So sorry about that... Goodnite....

So serious?

  Today one of my brother in Christ warning me not to spread some fake news towards people because it may break church's images and his images... I'm so wondering because last time I saw he post a status on facebook which is nobody is able to blocking me to go in church... When I saw this status, I misunderstood the meaning, I thought church not allowing he go inside... Today he suddenly said this problem is very serious, it may break his images and church's images so he want me to post a status on facebook about I misunderstood this case for recovering his images and church's images... I just reply him why should post on facebook? Is it so serious till whole world know this news already? I just told one people and the people told you about this only... Why need to post on facebook? You wanna make this news become big news? Want you things become topics again? Recovering your images? Is it serious till like that? Brother, you had changed.. You now just care about your images? A misunderstanding case also need to be settle in serious way which is to clarify it by post status on facebook? And when I asked back is it should be settle like that? He just answer, can or cannot? cannot then never mind already... Wow! What had you said??!!! You totally changed! You changed become a person that only care images but not care feelings....

Good News

  Yesterday night I'm still wondering I'm going to get good news or bad news... Yesterday night I'm still wondering I'm going to leave this world soon or not... Yesterday night I'm still feeling myself not ready to leave this world yet... Thanks God because this morning I get a good news which is I'm still going to survive in this world... Amen! When the moment I'm gonna know the answer soon, I was very nervous, I'm thinking what I should do after I get the answer is bad news... So glad to hear good news from the answer! Thanks God!!!! See??? When people getting good news that person will be very happy but today I heard some special person... He got an bad news which is he got the fourth period cancer but he still able face this bad news with a happy mindset... He was a christian and he was only 20 years old... I am so shocked because I think myself unable to accept myself if I have cancer on my own body... He accepted this and said to his mother about this cancer was a witness to show to people in this world! He was an awesome teenager and too optimistic! He is fully believe in God, God, please take care this teenager, he is light  that can light up humans' darkness, God please let his witness makes humans wake up and let all human in this world get salvation from this witness and God's words!

Ready

  Are you ready? When people asking us this question, we will just simply reply yes we are ready but when someone asking help from us, what answer we will give? You sure you really ready? Today our church is having performance at Han Chiang high school school hall, when is the turn for us to perform, many of us are getting nervous and feel not ready but recall back yesterday night memory, we said we are ready for the performance... Why people always like that? Always say but unable to do it? I am this kind of person too, I hate myself! Every time people asking me did I ready? I just simply reply I was ready but when the things in coming to me, I suddenly feel myself unable to handle it and honestly, I felt myself not ready before... In this world, that is impossible have anyone able to say they are ready because no one are ready to accept they death... Tomorrow I am going to know I gonna survive or I gonna die... Now so nervous but also feel calm... God is holding this all, I just give it to God... I full of sins... Maybe I should leave this world... But I didn't wanna leave this world even though I hate this world... I just wanna say I not ready...

Important

  Important! Many things are important to us, for example, healthy, career, education, certificate, cash, happiness, family members, boyfriend or girlfriend, husband or wife, many more.... There have one thing that special, if you treat it too important you will make people hate you but if you treat it not very important you will make people feel that you are cheap.. That thing is decisions... Haha! Get shocked with my answer? Many people will think the answer was Faces but so sorry, my answer was decisions... Why I say so? Dicisions are important or not important? Have you think before if you make wrong decisions, what ending it bringing? Nope... People just think things that bring advantages to themselves are the most important things ever! Let's take a look, if we treat choices so important, we are unable to make decisions and will feel very stress till unable to breath and in the end we fail to make our decisions... The other way, if we are too easy to make decisions without thinking the end, we will see our lucks, lucks good bringing good ending, lucks bad bringing bad ending... This is not a game, not simply make decision without thinking and also don't think too over till you unable make your own decisions.. Try asking people' advises and make yourself more confidence to make the right decisions...

Force

  Force! Anyone love the feeling that force by someone? No one love it , am I right? This morning, that crazy boss suddenly proposed one scary game in briefing time... That game is sharing our own opinion about all colleagues, this can be count as team building... Boss say this game is easy to play, you just say out what you think, no body will force you to say...Listen carefully ya, boss say won't force at the first... When reached my turn, I say out all my bad... I'm ego, aggressive and no manner... After that all colleagues comment on me... When the time I made conclusion, my boss asked me what I wanna made for conclusion, I say my conclusion was nothing to say.. Boss started staring at me and say no matter what you also need to say something... Huh??? At first you are the people who say won't force us but now you forcing me pula.... Walao!!! See! This is why I said nothing to say because that boss are horrible, in front us say like boss won't care so much but actually boss are really care, only boss setting a trap to make us speak out truth... So scary, boss acting like that I just follow boss acting back...

Honest

  What is the meaning of honest? Everyone know it's meaning but no one able to do as what it means... Why I say so?  Now days, human choose to be a liar more than an honest people because honest people always get hurt badly and play fooled by people... Humans are getting hate to be honest to prevent get fool or get hurts... Many people are scare to be honest because themselves unable to accept the truths so they will think other people also unable to accept those truths if they honest say out... Humans always just think from their sides but never think both sides even though they always telling people around them to think both side... This is humans' bad habits, humans always very well in encouraging people with lots of sentences that make sense but never able to encouraging themselves back because they know those sentences that make sense just a bullshit... Only kids are the most honest, they shows us all what they think and what they feel... The more simple we live, the more simple we get happiness... Honest is a simple way to let people understand us but we choose to be a liar to make people hard to understand us and in the end say no body understand us, I am shooting myself because I wanna honest to people but sometime I will keep a bit but not honest all... Haha, see? I am speaking sentences that make sense but it doesn't make sense for myself because I know those sentences' meaning and stories well...

Caroling

  Tonight our church's youth having a caroling near our church, I didn't know about it... So all youth were wearing white t-shirts and blue jeans, only I'm the special one, I wore orange t-shirt and white long pant... =~=" So special lo me!!!! Tonight we had been caroling to many place, for example kopitiam, mamak stall and old town... Our first caroling place was kopitiam, there was so many customers in it, all those customer were paying attention on us when we were going to start our caroling, this made us so nervous till unable to sing... Thanks God we made it, we able to sing and those following songs we able to sing smoothly... Customers in kopitiam gave us so many warm smile, we felt so happy... After that we were going to following caroling, Thanks God to giving me a chance to caroling... Actually in the beginning, I was thinking why I'm so stupid, come to youth go caroling pula because I worried and I shy... But after we mission completed, I felt it so worth, I felt so happy because I able to join caroling and bringing happiness to others people! 

Lesson

  Today I learnt a good lesson, thanks to the Proton Saga owner so much! Today when I'm on the way going back home from work, I saw an accident, a Mvyi kiss a Saga's ass... I don't know why the Myvi will kiss Saga ass, maybe Myvi's driver not concentrate... When Saga's driver feel she get kissed, the first emotion of the Saga's driver is shocked and laughing... Huh???!!! Own car's ass get kissed by someone still able to laugh some more, that driver are so awesome... After that I thought the Saga's driver will come down from car but she didn't come down from car but just sit inside car... After 1 minute, Mvyi's driver come out and talk to Saga's driver... I'm wondering because if my car's ass get kissed sure I first jump down from car... I thinking, thinking and thinking... Finally I learnt a lesson from the Saga's driver... She had taught me not too easy to come down from car once get kissed by other car because it maybe is fake accident really robbery... All my friends who watch this blog, remember to calm down yourself when you involve in an accident... Don't go down from your car before you make sure the situation was safe... Lesson learnt!

Believe

  Many people said there was a 'lie' is hiding inside 'believe', call us not to too believe someone... But so sad because human was easy to believe human and easy to be cheated and get hurt by the one who they trust very much... I had control myself not to trust too much before but seem that I had failed to control myself... Since I was in primary school till now, I always been cheated been hurt but I still like that easy to trust people around me... Am I a stupid idiot fool???? I think I am!!!! Please my friends which around me, please don't ever betray me or lie to me... I will hate you forever, if I not hate you I will not friend with you anymore... Don't force to be like that cruel, I also don't want be like that but it was too hurt till force me to do that if the one I trust had betrayed me or lie me or cheated me.... I like to be honest and straight because like that will be very simple... Simple was the happiest thing that very hard to get it, so we should learn how to be simple but now days human just learning to be more complicated because they feel themselves will easy get cheated if they were simple.... You like to live in a simple world or a complicated world? You choose yourself, think carefully...

Complicated

  Why human so complicated? Sometime say this is the right way, after 5 minutes say this is the wring way.... So COMPLICATED!! Human was you, ghost also was you... So hate this kind of people, when ask about this way can or not, always shout:"Sure like this way la! Why you keep asking those stupid question? Use your common sense la please!" But when the way that people said so easy just now doesn't work at all, I go ask again and I get shout again too:"Who told you do this way?! Have you concentrate on what I said just now? XXX, you tell him what I said just now!" Wow! So fierce, then I shoot back:"This way was purposed by you just now, you said I should use this way and you said I'm asking  stupid question..." After that person heard this, that person just keep quiet and say like a fool:"Huh??? Really meh?!!! I really said that just now??!! Maybe you heard wrong la... Quick go use the second way solve the problems..." See, so amazing, am I right? That person are totally complicated with what that person think... People work with their duty, that person work with that person mood... Syok syok this syok syok that, problems come out, push this push that push far far... Some more always say that person able control all things... So funny, please la, just admit your fault, the more you cover your fault the more I beh siok you and watch you down... =_=|||

Pattern

  Pattern, everyone also have their own special pattern... Pattern can be a pattern that many people like it, it may also be a pattern that many people hate it... Pattern is hard to change it because pattern and habits not very same, habits can be change once you force yourself but pattern is unable to change no matter how you force yourself... Today I had experiencing a lot of different patterns... I have my bad pattern, my bad pattern is I ego, I only do the things I feel right and don't like to follow those orders that I don't like... This bad pattern is easy to make people hate me no matter you have a expert EQ or good controlling your own temper... So I not very easy to communicate with anyone but if those people who can accept my bad pattern, they will be very happy to cooperate with me because they will found out my bad pattern is bringing some good job works~XD Today my big boss is coming to our branches, it also mean my superior's pattern also coming out soon... My expectation was too awesome, as my expectation said, all those pattern and bad habits all come out once big boss reached.... =_= Wow! Awesome pattern... Never mind la because all colleagues already feel nothing with her bad patterns because we always face it when big boss coming... Just can say she was very awesome because always do like that but won't feel tired or boring~XD

Amazing way or simple boring way?

  An amazing lifestyle and a simple boring lifestyle, which lifestyle you will choose? Normally people will choose amazing lifestyle because it is challenging and exciting but I so weird, I choose a simple boring lifestyle.... Why I say so? Okay, Let me tell you a story about this topic... Today my ex-secondary school mate invite me to have some coffee and chatting... He wanna sharing some good news to me... The good news is something about I may earn a lot of amazing experiences, happiness, knowledge and money... That thing he promote is totally awesome, I think many people will follow that thing but I made a different decision... My dream was to travel all around the whole world since I was young but the reason I unable to make it is because I didn't have a lot of money and today, the thing that my friend sharing with me able to let me earn a lot of money and make my wish come true but I had choose to reject that invitation.. I choose a simple boring lifestyle and rejected an amazing lifestyle.... @~@!!!! Huh???!!! Am I crazy? I also wondering... I just know at that moment all I think was I want to live a simple life, that's all and nothing more... Maybe people will say I am coward... My answer is yes, I am a super duper coward, for me , simple lifestyle is the happiest thing ever!!! Hahahaha, I think I really crazy....

Know or Don't Know...

  Know or don't know, which one you more prefer? Normally, human will automatically choose to know but they didn't think deeply before they choose.... Why I say so? Okay, Let me ask you back first before I answering your why...When your face a thing that you don't know, will you think deeply first before choose? Or you just simply wanna know what is the truth so you just choose to know? See? The answer is you choose to know without think deeply because you only want to know the truth as soon as possible... So do you agree human will automatically choose to know whatever they can know? You will agree, right? Okay, now I'm going to tell you the scary part of choosing know... When you are choosing to know, you never think so much, it mean you don't even ready yourself to accept the answer yet when you make your decision... So when you get the truth that you unable accept it, you will disappointed and lost or do some stupid stuff to make yourself wake up... Sometime know too much is not a good thing because once you know it, you will try to think many ways to prevent it and at the same time, you won't be happy anymore except nervous and scare... We like to know many time because we feel that after we know all the things, we feel more safe but the truth is not, after you know everything, you won't feel safe but you will feel more worry and lost because you don't know how to handle the thing those you know... If I can choose, I wanna choose to be don't know because you don't know, mean you still have a short period to be happy some more before you face it... If you already know it before it happen, you are unable to happy anymore but just worry till it happen...

How to make people happy?

  How to make a person which in a bad mood situation become happy? It is too hard for me... If kids, that was very easy, I very well in make a kid happy back when the kid was sad.. But other than kids, I unable to make them be happy back when they were sad.... I'm wondering, what can I do to make people happy back? Anyone can give me advises? I want to learn the way to make people happy back because I don't want look my friends or people I know in sad condition.... Sometimes, I feel myself so kepo... People' things are people' things, why I so busy body, care this care that, kepo this kepo that, till the end, I only get bad rejected and hate by people.... Why I so stupid? Why I always doing somethings that I no need go do? I too easy care people' things... I am that kind of people which kepo people' things kepo till forget my own things.... Is it a good habits? Or that is bad habits? I want to change this habits, I don't want care too much, but the answer is I unable to change this habits... It is already become my lifestyle mode.... My friend told me she wanna suicide, wanna leave this world... At that moment, my mind was thinking why don't I suicide with her but till the end I encourage her not to suicide because it is not worth at all... If I wan suicide, I will do it myself but I won't call people accompany me suicide because I know this action is too awful stupid, only myself can do this stupid stuff... >.<

Soul~~~~

  Everyone has a soul in their heart... God is so powerful, God able to create many soul because in this world, we are unable to find a human that same soul with us... God gives us freedom, let us choose our own ways... So that, souls will change very fast, if that person choose to be good, the soul is strong... If that person choose to be bad, it means the soul is weak and get hurt.... Do you have strong soul or weak soul in your heart? Do you know? How we make ourselves clear? It is easy... Let's us take a look... Around you have a guy or lady that are super duper kind? He or she always smile and let you feel he or she is angel... Between your friends, do you have this kind of friends? This kind of people are having a strong soul, they clear about what they want... How about a weak soul? Between your friends, do you have some friends that easy to be emo, sad, disappointed, think too much or pessimistic? That kind of people are having a weak or get hurt soul, he or she need your cares and encourages... I am a person that having a weak and get hurt soul... I easy become emo, sad, pessimistic and think too much... I feel so stress, my friend said, if you want to release from stress, you should learn how to put down first... Honestly, it is too hard to put down because I am a person that easy to care too much.... haizzzzzzzzzz

Serious equal to lose?

  I'm so wondering... Is it after we get serious in something, then it mean we sure lose? Serious is a bad thing? Base on common sense, serious is a good attitude... I feel my serious was too over already... My serious may hurt people... I also don't like my own serious... But when I'm not serious, people around me say I'm to annoying... Once I be serious, people around me say they hate my serious face pula... Many friends told me I shouldn't live at the way how people looked at me... I tried to live my for my own, but seem that I had failed... In the end, I still live for how people look at me... I wanna learn how to control serious because I very tired to getting hurt some more... I very fed up with myself... Why I so weak? Why I so easy to care so much? Why I so easy beat by people comments? I just wanna be the real me... I treat people nice but people won't treat me nice back... I know I treat people nice doesn't mean people should treat me nice back but at least don't hurt me or treat me cold, right? I'm wondering..... Should I serious? Should I be nice guy? Or should I be bad guy? Bad guy hard to get hurt? Is it true? But I don't want hurt people also don't want people hurt me.... 

Tired

  Feel so tired... Not just tired is physical, it is also tired in mental and one more, is my heart also feel tired... Physical tired is because feel so boring about my life, I had tried to do many things to make my life be more interesting but seem that it failed...The more I tried, the more I disappointed and face more problem... Mental tired is because all the things that happened around me were too challenging... Challenging is equal to interesting activities, for me is not... Challenging is equal to mental suffering activities... Facing all those fake people and unfair things... Urghhhhh! Gosh!!! I am going to fall! May I quit???!!! Heart tired is because I scare human... The more we believe someone the more danger is getting close... I worry I unable to handle the situation if someone that I very believe betray me.... Gosh! I feel wanna leave this world... Should I just R.I.P(Rest is peace) ???? I think I should..........

Liar

  Why this world is full of liar? No matter where you are, there are many liars beside you... I am so fed up with this! Liars, may you stay away from me? I don't like to be friends with liar... I am a straight person, if you don't like me or beh siok me, just straightly tell me, no need act or lie at there... Isshhhhhh!!!!!!!!! Almost want to be crazy... Why I so care about liar!!!! I force myself not to care but I still care a lot what they said... Why a liar can lie to someone that believe them so much? They heartless? They cold blooded? Should I hide myself in a safe house in my heart? I wondering..... Maybe I should change, be cold blooded and don't care about anythings anymore, be a selfish and quiet person... Today I don't know what to write some more... My mood not so good.. Why my life has many liars? Is this a challenge for me? To train me to be more independent? Be more success? Or be a perfect liar? I hate to be an actor! I straight, that is my real style, accept my straight or just stay away from my straight! Ish!!!!!!!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~~~

Greedy

  Everyone in this world also have a same attitude which is greedy, no matter babies, kids, teenagers, youths, adults or old folks, no one is not greedy... Just see how are their greedy level... Babies', kids' and old folks' greedy level are the lowest one.. Why I say so? Things that baby want is only their mother, father and milk... Things that kids want are just play and fun... Things that old folks want are just a simple retired life... Then how about teenagers' and youths' greedy level? These two groups' greedy level no need let me explain because you all are experiencing now time to time.. What teenagers and youths want? Shopping, play game, buy car, buy shirt, buy pants, want to be in love, smoke, drink alcohol drinks, pub or clubbing, play bowling, and some or even more....
  People able to learn up many things but doesn't mean that after learnt up all the things then that person able to do all the things by himself or herself... Let's say those things are 5 different workers' duty, you call someone to learn all 5 different duty and after that person learnt you let that person individually do those 5 different duty... How can a person do 5 person works? Even though you have give some advantages to that person but that person just accept some advantages from you then you already have the right to command that person done 5 person duties??? Maybe you think like this, you may save a lot of moneys because you spent one person salary to hire a person that can finish up 5 person jobs... This is count as greedy also... Will all the human in this world stop greedy? Will it come true? 

World

  I'm getting more disappointed to this world, I really very tired to live in this world, may I just leave this world? Sometime I'm wondering why my thinking are so negative... The factor of my thinking become negative are environment, mind thinking, people who appear in my life, incident that I faced since young till now and I have a good brain that able to remember many things for a long time... Haiizzzzzz...
  Sometime I think that why will I have this all ability and incidents... I prefer to be a simple normal guy instead of being a guy that may think a lot in the same time... I really getting tired and tired, I almost wanna exhausted already.. People say comfort only given to those people which already rest in peace... Honestly, I need comfort but this world may not allow us to get comfort once we still survive in this world.. May I be selfish? May I just put down all things and just leave this world like that? But I had tried to imagine if I'm going to leave this world, will I really dare to just leave this world? The answer is I unable to leave this world easily and smoothly, I still unable to put down anythings although I always saying I wanna give up and leave this world... I really need to hide up myself in the middle of forest and live in deep of forest, that is the only way I can get the comfort and peace that I want....

Environment

  Environment...  This is very important factor for building a person's future, did you agree with me? Why I say so? I may explain to you what I understand about the different of environment...
  Good environment... Many people say if people grow up in a good environment, they will be a nice person but did you think so? For me, NO!!!! Why? People that grow in a good environment, they will be hard to be nice in future because they not easy to feel thankful maybe some still think that normally this kind of good environment must be given to them, only they suit for it... People grow in good environment is not very independent because all the things they want, parent will automatically prepare for them... But they will have a lot of happiness and sweet memories.....
  Bad environment... A lot of people grow in a bad environment, they will be very tough and very independent in future, maybe you will think that is a good things... Honestly, that is a good things that bring bad things... Why I say so? People which grow from bad environment, they do anything also only can count on themselves, no matter they tired or hurt, they still need to stand up and finish up those things they handle, they unable rest or show tired, they may just acting tough and getting stronger by forcing themselves... Even though in the end they are success but they had lost their happiness and sweet dream, in the end they just own sadness, tired, bad memories and negative thinking about this world....
  I'm wondering... Which environment should I give to my future son and daughter.... I want them be tough and independent but not in a bad environment and also not in a good environment... Bad environment is not good for them, good environment is too good for them already... OMG! Headache.....

Selfish...

  Selfish, this is a basic attitude that own by everyone who live in this world... Many people say selfish is a bad attitude but some say selfish is because they want to protect themselves... Once people heard about selfish is protecting himself or herself, they will argue with him or her because they unable accept this definition....
  Selfish is not bad or not good... Just we cannot over selfish or totally no selfish because if you over selfish, nobody will stay close with you anymore, if you totally no selfish, people will try to find ways to get advantages from you... haizzzzz.... Why human must be like that? Some are over kind until always get bully.. Some are over greedy until all people hate him or her... Is it all so important to us? I had think before... If this world no more money, no more control, no more rules, how will this world look like, it will be very worst... But now day, world are still controllable but human very worst... Worst world and worst human, which one you prefer? I prefer worst world because in worst world you may survive once you strong enough... I hate live in a world that full with worst human because those kind of human only can survive once they have a powerful mind that may make himself or herself do what he or she want and doesn't care how people get hurt because of their action... World is doesn't change worst, the things that change worst is human... Getting and getting worst time to time.... End of the world please....

Fake

  This world is containing a lot of fake human that always acting in front of us... Why they like to act? Won't they feel uncomfortable when be a liar? Why human cannot honest till human? Scare will hurt someone else after honest? It was just a suck excuses that giving himself or herself a chance to be liar... When he or she not yet been attacked, he or she will act like supporting that person... Once that person attack he or she, he or she will straight away change his or her attitude, back attacking that person by spreading that person bad... Woah! So awesome! Actor award sure have his or her place.... Please la, don't be like that la... Be honest be true is very difficult meh?
  Hiding is a better way? I think so, I wanna hide myself in middle of the forest.... Why I wanna hide myself? The reason is because of human, sometime I hate some fake human... I always stay alone, maybe other people will feel my attitude was bad but i like to keep that bad attitude because that bad attitude is able to keep fake people stay away from me... Fake people hate people that can see through them and always attacking them by finding fake people's fake part.... I want to show my bad attitude always so that fake people won't stay close with me... Maybe many people will laugh I stupid because I do like that will lost many friends and in the end I'm alone always... I scare lonely but I more scare fake people... So I choose to be alone because I don't want get hurt anymore....

Decision

  Today let's us talk about decision.... Now days, people are making decision easily without think deeply, this is the factor why people getting hurt easily... Many people say life will be happy once you think simple and positive... So many people just simply make decision without thinking that ending... For example, my buddy made a decision to go some where else learns independent, she never think what will happen once she leave... She was so brave! If I say make that type decision are too danger and crazy, people will just simply replied me, why you think so much, thinking is the wall that stop you step forward... Or some will say thinking is problem, don't think and just go ahead is success... Why I wanna think many things before I make decision? It is because I been hurt many time and injured badly.. I want myself stay in a safe area but not danger area... If I do like that, will appear a lot of people say I shouldn't make that decision, they will say I should step forward.... I'm wondering, I just wan simple and safe area type life only... It is wrong? Too simple is a fault? Too safe too normal cannot? I like normal boring life also cannot? Why always stop me to get a comfort life that I want?

Goodbye

  Everyone in this world don't like to face farewell party, farewell dinner or farewell meeting... Tomorrow, one of my buddy gonna moving to Perlis for 4 months... Omg!! I worry I unable suitable myself without that buddy, she was like and monkey, she bring happiness and noisy to my life~XD Wish she doesn't look at this, or else I gonna leave this world soon~XD 4 months is not a short period.. 4 months = 120 days = 2880 hours = 172800 minutes = 10368000 seconds... Omg!!! So long time...
  Today I realize something else, it was a sentences which is 'All the best!'... It was a powerful sentence, it may encourage people and showing people that you are supporting him or her.... But today I wrongly use this sentence, when my boss giving me idea about decorate that thing, one of my colleague replied it maybe works, can try it... I add one more sentence which is wish you all the best ya~XD Sound like I supporting my boss do for her own.... I know it was bad but sometime she giving some terrible idea that may bring me in danger... So I use to be run away from her terrible idea to protect myself~XD

Accident

  Many people will turn into nervous when heard the word 'Accident' because it bringing some bad news always... Sometimes it also bringing good news but the percentage of bringing good news was too low... so many people will automatic scare the word 'Accident'....
  Today I almost nearly met a bad news type accident and i really met an accident but don't know it can count be good accident or bad accident... Let's talk about bad news accident first... Today I was almost late to work, so I rode very fast, faster then common day... When I reached a corner, I nearly accident at there... 3 years ago, I had an accident at the corner, I hurt badly until I sent to hospital by ambulance... Luckily today i just nearly accident again but not really accident, thanks God for protecting me.... First accident was done, now let's talk about the accident I met but I not sure it was good or not... This accident is about I accidentally meet someone that I so care in a kopitiam.. That scene was the someone was having lunch with a guy and the someone smile to me and helping the guy picked up cold drinks and gave it to that guy, that scene was so sweet... At that moment, I feel so happy because someone so happy now, at the same moment I feel not well in my heart... Am I jealous? I'm wondering what I thinking... Should I ask her? Should I just ignore it? haizzzzzzzzz.........

Care....

  Care... So many people like to say I don't even care but himself or herself is very care about those thing... People like to be a liar.. They thought they said they won't care then they will feel better.. It is doesn't work at all...
  I am a liar too... I like to say I don't care.. Honestly, I very care about it.. I'm a person that like to care so much... Even though many people tell me that once i don't care so much, I will be better... I'm so sorry, I unable to control myself not to care about it.. No matter it is small problem or big problem, I will automatically care so much... Care so much is not a good habits because once you care so much, you will make those people that you care feel so uncomfortable and frustrated...
  I would like to learn the way ignore but not care because I care too much... The more I care, the more my life getting worse... Should I be selfish? Should I be cold blood? Should I care so much? I don't know what should i do... Many people say we are live for our own but not live for others.. I always use this sentence to scold someone that not clear about himself or herself till he or she wakes up... Unfortunately, this sentence is powerless for me, it unable to wake me up but just making me more hard to make decision... What should I do? Care or don't care?
                              GOSH!!!!!!!!